Thursday, February 28, 2013

A New Respect for My Master

In focusing on the role a Mistress or Master has to their pets, and what they should expect from their pets, I now have a new respect for the Master of my Heart. There has been so much for me to learn, still, to be a good Mistress to my pets. As I've been studying up lately on this role that I've come to have, I see that for as long as I've known the Master of my Heart, he has been a good example of what  makes a good master. He has always commanded respect. He has always told me my place. But he also was always attentive to my needs and wants as his pet. Always a good listener. He's been a patient teacher. So patient even when my mind has time to time wanted to rebel against his control and his authority. 

Since I've known him, he has always expected so much from me. He expected my respect. He expected my obedience. He commanded me to train, and I did. He followed through with all his commands, making sure I obeyed, and did all my assignments. He not only did that, he gave me feedback on every assignment I did. And he always wanted me to be the best pet and individual I could be. 

All these are the characteristics of a good master. A good example of how a master should be. When a master has these characteristics, it is so easy to submit to such a master. A pet just WANTS to submit willingly,  and surrender completely.

So I have always respected the Master of my Heart. But now, I have a whole new respect for him. I respect him even more now.  

He truly is one of the best masters you can have, and to be owned by him is an honor. Any sub who doesn't see that, well, it's their loss.

Only the Beginning

Today I had a moment to briefly chat with my Italian pet. He had already read yesterday's blog, so he knew I had intended to speak to him and give him his assignment. He is such a good pet. There's not denying that. He reads my blog often, to keep up with his Mistress. He is always so attentive and considerate. I'm very happy with my Italian pet. So when I saw my pet, he was ready for his assignment. So I told him to also compose me an email, and in the email tell me how he plans to serve his Mistress and be useful to her. He accepted his assignment and he too, also at once, completed his assignment with in minutes and sent me the following email:

"Hello Mistress,it's hard to answer your question because It's open to so many answers but:

I plan to become more available for you,watching your hypnotic submission video often so your voice is even more alluring.

I plan to improve my english speaking to talk with you more easily and fluidly

I plan to improve my hypnotic skills so I can trance you more deeply and easily when you ask me to do so.

I want my mind to be trained along with your desires

I want so many triggers that you can play with me even without having to trance me

I want to obey you and make you happy every time you're down


I want to have even more ideas so that this list would actually have no end


I plan to make sure that if you'll ask me this again another day I can only give you a blank paper because I pleased and served you to perfection"


I feel I can say that each and every one of my pets have shown that they are ready to be the best pet that they can possibly be to me. They all accepted their assignment willingly, and completed their assignments so quickly. Each of them have pleased me. Each one of them, showed they are so obedient. 

Good pets. 

This is only the beginning. More training and assignments to come. 

I am your Mistress, You are my Pet

I’ve learned a lot becoming involved in hypnosis, while at the same time learning about Dominance and Submission. But recently put that more in focus: what it is to dominate and be a Mistress, as well as what to expect from your subs and pets. Then I evaluated myself as Mistress. Then I realized I needed to tune myself as a Mistress. I realized I hadn’t fully taken my place as a Mistress and owner of my pets. I’ve assumed the role, but I did not take ownership of the role that I have. When it became clear to me, I knew I had to correct this at once. 

I made contact first with the newest pet, as he is getting to know me, I wanted to clearly establish myself as his new owner. After some light talk over the phone, I got down to business. I called him with a purpose, a reason. I wanted to state his place in the relationship he was starting with me. I was clear and direct as I told him his place and what I would expect of him. Then I gave him his first assignment. Already very behaved and obedient, I could hear my new pet take a pen and paper and ready himself to take notes.

His assignment: I wanted him to compose an email with categories. The categories were to detail his needs, his wants, his desires, his strengths, and his weakness.

Within minutes after hanging up with my new pet, he had completed the assignment I had given him:

NEEDS

i need shelter, food and water, sleep, clothes, job, car, money, etc.

i need hope, optimism and respect

i need sunlight

i need love

i need a reason, a purpose

i need to be submissive, obedient and controlled



WANTS

i want to submit to a Domme.

i want to be controlled, used and valuable

i want to always be deeply hypnotized

i want hypnotic suggestion to be flow into me without resistance

i want my desire to be a pet to grow and grow



STRENGTHS

i am reliable, dependable

i am forever loyal

i always try my hardest

i love hypnosis and mind control

i love Your voice

i trance easily and happily

i value honesty



WEAKNESSES

i am married

my time is often consumed

i have little privacy

i travel a good amount

i can be obsessive about things

my submissive self can be needy



DESIRES

Being Your collared pet

Being obedient and useful to You

To just let go, submit to You

Being unable to resist the control

Being teased and denied by my Mistress

The control to grow and grow

The chance to grow and learn how to serve and please You

To always feel this safe with You

To always trust You as i do now



I was rather please that the new pet did his assignment quickly with much thought in what he wrote.

Then I thought of my other pets, and how I’ve never given them an assignment to complete for me. I then realized I needed to expect more of them too. To expect more only helps them grow, like personal development. I had been too soft on them.

I decided to call on my first pet, my Dan. He was my first pet ever, and is still my favorite. He also is closest. I expressed to him how I needed to be a better Mistress to him, and I needed to expect more out of him as my pet. Things were going to change. And if I hadn’t be clear before, let me be clear now. I told him his place and made clear who I am to him: I am his Mistress and owner. He is my pet. So after telling him how things would be changing, I then gave my Dan his first assignment. I wanted him to write me 2 of his fetishes / turn ons. He accepted his assignment and as soon as we hung up, he also completed the task within minutes. He not only completed the task, he went above and beyond by adding more:



Assignment:



1. Being restricted. I wouldnt go as far as bondage, but essentially, yes. It doesnt have to be tied down, it can be being restricted in anotherway, i.e. not being able to do somthing simple, such as talking/walking etc. I guess i like control being taken away, and upon resisting, being able to do nothing about it

2. I discovered this last year. lets start of by saying i was uncomfortable in the dark, not scared, but unease. I decided to concore my 'fear', to do this i took a shower in pitched black(the bathroom was the darkest placed i had (no window)). So i turned the light of, got undressed and got in the shower. I must have got turned around in the shower, because when i tried to get out i couldnt find the door, anywhere! It is then when i realised my unease of the dark wasnt fear, it was the excitement of the unknowing, somebody could be standing right in front of me, and i wouldnt know it, by world could turn upside down, totally change, and because of lack of sight i would have no idea. So unknowing

I know you didnt ask for this bit, i hope its ok, i just want us to grow together.





Needs

· to be needed

· to exceed

Wants

· to be successfully

Desires

· to make you happy

Hopes

· that we will grow stronger

· to find love

Fears

· the more pets you get, the further apart we will grow



Now I just need to speak to my Itallian pet. To be continued…

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

My Master's Toy

I am a pet with two masters, one of which lately has been so caught up with school that it has distracted him completely to needs of me as his pet. The Master of my Mind did not contact me for over a week. A few words in an email would have been good. But without that, I felt rather neglected, unneeded. When my master finally came to see me, I was craving any reminder of my place with him. Even if he simply called me "Pet". It would of been enough. When he wasn't doing this, I hinted that it would be nice to see a few words reminding me of my place. My master's response - got to go to bed, good night. That left me feeling unsatisfied. I wanted to still feel his wanting to assert his being my master. Just earlier in the evening I had taken some time training my new pet David. So I was still in domme mode through most of the evening, but there was that part of me that wanted to still be a pet to both my masters. So the Master of my Mind didn't help me feel in touch with the side of me that is a pet. I started to feel it might cause my mind not to submit as it should to any of my masters. I spoke with the Master of my Heart. I told him my concern, that I was not feeling much of a pet at the moment. My master, listened to me say this, although he was busy trying to finish another level. Then, something odd happened. It could of been something I read. It could of been something he said. I don't know how, but I felt myself drop into a rather deep trance. Then in this state, I heard my master tell me he was taking a break for me. He asked me a question. When I responded yes, he could hear I sounded very tranced. He decided to keep me tranced. Already so deep, he told me what I needed to hear. That I was a pet, his pet. And right then, I was only a pet, just a pet, and even his toy. I found myself repeating no control, just a toy. Each time feeling more blank and deeper, and getting lost in pleasure. It felt so good. Not just the trance. But my master caring enough about my needs to stop what he was doing to remind me that I was still his pet.

When I woke up, I just felt amazing. My master content that he reminded me of my place, went back to completing the task at hand, finishing another level. He did this for a while longer, until he felt he wanted another break. And this time, when he did, he was the one who wanted to relax for me. My master let go to me more than he has in a very long time. How I enjoyed seeing him drop so deeply. I knew he was ultradeep. And with him this deep, I brought out my wolf and had fun playing with him. So thank you Master of my Heart for making last night a great night.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Mind Blank, Body Tipsy

So I after already knowing the Master of my Heart almost 3 months, I barely am being introduced to his text hypnosis. I first experienced it last night and quickly became captivated by his words. I knew I could be text tranced, but it's only happened once to me before. I prefer being tranced by voice. But I tried it, and soon felt the loss of control. Not being able to look away, he worked me to empty my mind. So entranced, so deep, just a pet, then, before I knew it, suddenly just a toy. His toy. No thoughts, no wants, no needs. Just my master's thoughts, just my master's wants, just my master's needs, just my master's words.

The next night, he let me feel entrance by his words again. Just not a toy this time. Thought I did kind of enjoy that feeling, and wouldn't mind feeling it again. 

I guess part of me is kind like his toy at the moment. A little tipsy right now, from his hypnotic tequila shots, and a little tipsy from some real wine I drank. And a little switched off consciously  being my master's toy writing this blog body tipsy and mind blank

Saturday, February 23, 2013

My Master's Needs

Well the past few days I've felt a bit restrained on the home front. My freedom has been somewhat restricted but things are slowly improving. Because I haven't had the freedom to, I haven't had much time for my pets and some of them have felt a bit neglected by me. I've talked to each of them and I hope that they clearly see I've been distant not out of choice, and I miss them very much. Seeing each of them momentarily was good, I really have missed their company. It's already so difficult to be able to see the pets I already have, but I still have suitors coming to me asking me to own them. As tempting as it is, I really feel I can not take on any more pets at the moment. The most I did for one young man is hypnotize him  and he enjoyed that thoroughly and I'm glad I was able to make him feel good. I've spent as much time as possible spending time with the Master of my Heart as he's been preparing to move to his new apartment. He's feeling the tension of the move I'm sure, as well as the results of sleeping on a bad bed. He's been day in and out dealing with such back and neck pain. I feel so helpless, I wish i could massage it away for him. I am so good with my hands. It just makes me silently fume when I know his girlfriend is not tending to my master's needs. Does she not care for him? See he's in pain? Thinking of him and his needs at all?  I wish she made more an effort for him. Maybe once he is settled in his new apartment, and the back pain is gone, he can work on making her a better pet to him again. Every pet needs a little re-training, time to time. She's no exception.

I got to spend some time chatting with Master and my hypno sister. My hypnosister has been dealing with some personal issues and I hope that me and the Master of my Heart keep her smiling and entertained. I truly love and care for her and if hearing me moan in pleasure as my master triggered my arousal helps take her mind off of her sorrows, well, then it's fine by me. I just hope she enjoyed it as much as I did.

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Playful Kitty

My Master's kitty came out to play with him. He loved so much playing with with his cat. She was such a playful kitty. She just couldn't keep still. Her Master, trying to focus on finishing another level, but kitty kept patting her paws on the keys of his keyboard. She kept moving her kitty tail in front of his face, her kitty tail tickling his cheeks. Meeowing and purring, purring and pawing. Kitty on her Master's lap, she tried to get comfortable, after all, Master's lap is such a comfy and cozy place. She found her Master's tummy, just felt so good to her paws. So as she sat on her Master's lap, she kept pressing her paws against his tummy. Left to right, left to right, back and forth, cutely moving her paws so fast, that it tickled him. Then kitty found a toy to play with, as she played on her Master's lap. Kitty just loved the toy so much. She played, pawed, and even rubbed, rubbing it against her cheek, being oh so careful not scratch it with her kitty claws. Her Master, so pleased with his kitty, served her some cream before he went off to bed. Good night mein Meister. Thank you for a wonderfully purrrrrfect night. Sweet dreams.

My Wolf Returns

I finally had the pleasure of trancing my Master Mats again. This time with his permission. This time, he wanted and asked me for it. I am wary of him asking me this. Just the day before it wasn't what he wanted, and I felt I had pushed myself on him in trying to trance him. So one day to the next? It almost felt like a trap. I protested a little bit. But he convinced me it was ok, and he really wanted it. So despite my reservations, I gave in. I agreed to do it. I felt a momentary rush of emotion. Lately, seems I do things that have made my master at times, displeased with me. Those times have been distressing for me, that I can feel anxiety even now, being afraid to displease him again. The anxiety overwhelmed me. I had to calm myself first. Once I calmed myself, I was ready. Carefully, I began to trance him, all the while afraid to proceed. But as he relaxed, so did I. I calmed down. He let go, and went deep for me. Once he was deep, deep enough that I knew he would accept all my suggestions, I guided him through a full transformation, and made him the wolf he loves to be. He does have a trigger already to instantly transform him, but I did a detailed transformation so he could really enjoy feeling transformed. It felt good to do this for him. It felt even better to know he wanted it. And after, when he told me that he really loved it, it was the best feeling in the world.

Monday, February 18, 2013

Crossing Boundaries

It has felt like forever since any of my masters took their time with driving me deep into trance. The norm of late has been relying on the effectiveness of triggers they have already programmed in me, triggers meant to take me instantly deep into trance. But eventually, without regular reinforcement using more traditional hypnosis techniques, even some of the most powerful triggers will at times have luke warm effects. I waited all weekend for tonight. I did have so much this weekend with the Master of my Mind, who turned up his dom side with me this weekend. But I had waited with anticipation for tonight. Friday, the Master of my Heart told me his plan to take me deep, and fully hypnotize me. I had been craving this so much. So I was excited when he told me what he planned to do.

Tonight came. After some small chat, my Master, focused on the task at hand, took charge. His mind was set on trancing me, so he did. Driving me deeper than I have been in a long time. I felt myself dropping down into such deep levels, with each time I dropped deeper, I could feel my entire body relaxing, and completely surrender to his control. I was so under, and completely helpless to him. He could of told me anything, and I would of completely believed it. So when he told me I was just a cat pretending to be human, I believed him. He convinced me so much, my mind completely accepted it, creating sensations like having kitty ears and a kitty tail, and feeling my kitty paws. Then at some point my mind lost its grip on reality, because I felt myself become a full kitty, body and mind. I could not stop meowing, and each meow drove me deeper in trance, while also making me more cat. I remember that moment of feeling fully transformed. It was amazing. Master tells me I will feel even more cat in the next days.

It was wonderful time that my master spent with me, taking the time to trance me right. It always feels so good being hypnotized. I loved what he did for me. So I wanted to do the same for him. But in doing it, I crossed a boundary. He simply was not in the mood. I was dishearten, feeling a little rejected, my hypnosis a little unwanted. Times like this sometimes make me feel like I've sexually harrassed someone. It's my own issues with abuse, and my ongoing fears. I'm always afraid of possibly molesting some ones mind. Like a predator. I'm afraid of that. So intensily afraid of it. I never want to force myself on someone. So tonight, I didn't ask for permission to trance him. I just did it, wanting only to relax him and make him feel good.

It didn't work out like I wanted it to. I feel a little dirty. Feeling like I crossed a boundary. Even feel ashamed. I didn't mean to take advantage. gosh the more I think of it, the more low I feel. I just feel so low.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

From His Heart

Spent today simply being me. Not a pet, not a mistress, not a hypnotist. If I was anything, I was an auntie, and spent time playing with my nephew. We played video games together, then drew funny pictures with crayons. I did get to briefly visit with the Master of my Heart, just long enough to be a playful kitten with him, purring and playing on his lap. After, I left to go be an auntie to my nephew, and it wasn't until much later in the day when I took a moment to check my messages, and that I found my Master left me a sweet note. In fact, he had written me a poem. 


“I always say you are just a pet

But you are way more

As you found in my heart an open door

Now you are always there

Walking down deeper stair by stair

Becoming so very close to me

This is where I want you to always be

Next to me where you belong


Our bond to each other so very strong

So stay my pet forever

Don’t leave me, no never”



I call him the Master of my Heart for a reason. As you can see, the man is all heart.

Just a Pet

Had quite the interesting night with my Master. A night of switching and taking turns. He drove in deeply, that I'm just a pet. My dominant side did want to protest, being forced down even deeper. Forced to obey, forced to strip, forced to submit. And finding myself becoming even more of a kitty for my Master, despite the fact I'm not fond of cats. It was a fun night, I must admit I enjoyed it. Though I do try to fight it, I do like being controlled to feel that I'm nothing more than just a pet.

Friday, February 15, 2013

I Think of You First

Having a nice night with my pooh bear who isn't really aware of how much I am a pet or a mistress to anyone. He just found out I'm a pet with 2 masters a little over a week, maybe 2 weeks ago. I was afraid to tell him. I've known him for over 14 years. And when I told him, he was ok with it. All this time I had been hiding it from him and he was ok with it. Oh well. So tonight, talking with him about the Master of my Heart, and telling him how me and my Master have had some ups and downs lately. Pooh bear's response to hearing it, was to say "he loves you". My pooh bear has always loved me. I like to think of all this journey into hypnosis, masters, and pets kind of like the Wizard of Oz for me, and I'm Dorothy. The Master of Mind is the Tin Man, the Master of my Heart could be the Lion, not sure. But when things get a little out of hand,  and too much for me, and I can just click my heels and say 'there's no place like home'.  Because Pooh Bear is that to me, he's home to me. He's known me before I was a hypnotist. He knew me before I was Jennifer. He's the constant person in my life who's been there since I lived in my childhood home, and the next house, and now the house I live in now. Over 14 years he's been in my life so yes, he is like home for me. He's always been there, always cared, always took care of me as best he could. So I was telling him, yes, the Master of my Heart loves me, and second to his girlfriend, I'm always on my Master's mind.

Pooh Bear listened to this, then he told me "I think of you first, and nothing else after."

Thursday, February 14, 2013

My Mistake

So I just wrote a post a few minutes ago, in which I said I had been feeling there was was an illusion of how special I was to my Master. Now I'm writing to say that I was wrong. It was never an illusion. I just got off the phone with my Master. My Master, with deep sincerity, poured out his heart to me, told me how wrong I was to feel as I have been feeling. That wasn't an illusion. I was and am still very dear in his heart. What I haven't realized, is the difference between him playing with pets and his relationship with me. I guess I'm not just merely a pet to him. As he tells me, I am always on  his mind, only second to girlfriend. I feel so badly, because in expressing myself, I hurt my Master. But through the tears, it shows how much we mean to each other. And I do love the Master of my Heart. I will try to be more understanding, more accepting.
So tonight I spend sometime with my pooh bear, but I told my Master to message me when he is awake. Can't wait to hear from him again.

Wide Awake

Today is Valentines Day and started Valentines Day with a visit from my pooh bear who reminded me that after all this time, I'm still the only one that matters to him. So my heart did melt.  And it melted even more when my british pet came to see me early in the morning. He never wakes up early, so him showing up like he did just tell me Happy Valentines, well, it was so sweet. Little things still matter to me and him just coming to see me just as the clock passed midnight on the 13th making it officially the 14th, I saw it. I do love my pet Dan. We've had our up and downs but he's still with me and I'm glad.  Just after saying night to Dan, I continued my chat with the Master of my Mind for a brief conversation, then I called up the Master of my Heart. It was late but I wanted to hear him anyway, since I didn't really talk to him all day. And the weekend was coming, and every weekend I spend away from him.. So I didn't care if I was so tired. I called him.

The next day being Valentines, I fit in a call with the Master of my Heart again. We talked games and such just enjoying time talking to one and another. Hearing him on the phone just makes my day complete. Then my master, a fairly honest man, shared with me that he has been talking again more and more with a woman I myself have just met. And as I suspected, my Master was desiring once again to own a new pet. My heart sinks even as I write this. Not for the reasons you might be thinking. It's not possessiveness. It's not. It' holding on to the memory of a night with my Master, where we shared our hearts and our feelings for one and another. Realizing that we meant so much to each other. And my Master told me affectionately, from his heart, that he didn't need any more pets. That now that he found me, he was complete. He was whole. He didn't need anyone else. And when he told me that, it touched my heart, because when he said it, I could hear that he sounded like he meant it. So I believed it as well.

But soon after, things began to chip away at that illusion. When his friendship with a certain hypno fan approached him wanting to be his pet. He told me not to worry, it was nothing. But the facts are that 'she' was calling him her master, and he was calling her 'my pet'.  So the illusion of being all my master needed was starting to chip away.

So that was the chip that started to crack that illusion. And then there is my masters other newly added pet Nina, who he says used to be his pet, so she isn't really a new pet but what ever. In my eyes, I just see the pet list growing again.

And now this brings us the present. And now there is Ala from Poland. I already met her and she is a nice woman. I'll give her that. So kind of in auto-pilot I opened up a message, and began to write Ala the following:

"Hello Ala, how have you been? I understand you have come to be friends with my Master Mats. He's talked quite a lot about you lately and I understand you are interested in becoming a pet to him. I know you already and I can say that I get a good feeling from you. However, if Mats hasn't yet said it, he has a lot of pets at the moment, as well as a commitment as a co-writer. I know he may be spreading himself thin in adding you. It may mean I see less of him. No never mind, I just want him to be happy. And if having you as a pet makes him happy, I won't stand in the way of his happiness. So Mats says he cares for my approval on adding you. So you have it."

So there you have it. I wrote the above and pushed send. And then I kind of, put my head in my hands. I know what I've done. It's now my fault, not my Master's. He doesn't have to feel guilty for it. The blame is mine.

So the illusion that I'm all my Master needs has now fully shattered. Now I just need to let go of it and realize things as they are.

Wednesday, February 13, 2013

Proud of My Master

As already mentioned, I started this blog with little detail in my introduction telling you about me as well as brief introductions to the gentlemen I call my masters. I wanted to take the time now to tell you a little more about my second master, the master I affectionately call the Master of my Heart. This master somewhat recently went from being a private hypnotist to becoming a online persona when he began working with a female hypnotist on Youtube. Before my Master began working with her, she had an established youtube channel as a video producer of hypnosis videos. My Master joined her channel as a co-writer just before the new year. I soon met my Master and became not only a fan of his hypnosis videos, but a fan of her videos as well. I'm talking about Miss Jacqueline Powers, the Youtube hypnotist. Miss Powers and my Master make an excellent team that truly compliment each other. The two of them are creating a fun diverse arrangement of hypnosis videos keeping viewers entertained and wanting more. So as a fan of their videos, I'll be sharing their videos on my facebook, my youtube channel, and this blog. Afterall, this pet is proud of her Master.

Keeping Jennifer James on Her Knees

I started this blog with the pretense of writing about my experience and journey into submission. So I guess now is a good time to tell you how before last August, I wasn't every submissive at all. Nor was I also the obedient kind. Being tied down to anyone always made me feel antsy. Including the idea of staying in a relationship. I used to rebel against conformity. I was the kind of person who would or could just disappear for a bit. If there was something at home bothering me much, I could go on the longest walk in the middle of the night, on a long walk across town to be far away from what ever was bothering me. And other times, disappearing from people close to me, 2 years even, because I could. As far as obedience, I wasn't never really good at doing what I was told. That's why I made my own hours working in a office. Yes it was cocky of me, because I knew I was too good an asset to my employers for them to do anything about it. So fast forward to the present, and now I've opened myself to allowing myself to be tied down by the men I've come to call my masters, and letting it happen. It's my understanding that submission means your master is always on your mind, and the ideal image of being submissive is being on your knees before your master, waiting for his command, his wish, or his desire. I don't see it as being overly attached. I do feel devoted. But it doesn't mean I can't be the independent woman I was before. That woman is still inside. She comes out when she plays with my pets. She comes out when I am domme  She is still there, ready and willing, to get off her knees. But for now, I'll keep her calm and quiet. Because things are just fine the way that they are.

Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Mio Tesoro

I had the pleasure of talking to my Italian pet tonight. He has been such a good pet, helping me practice Italian.  He listens so patiently, as I stumble through my Italian, but still feeling the power in my voice. Knowing that I am his Padrona, and he is my tesoro. Knowing obedience is pleasure, he is so obedient and submissive to his Mistress. Bravo tesoro. My very good pet earned his release.

Sleepy Time My Pet

I am just a helpless obedient collared pet, so under the control of my master, so under in a very deep trance. Writing this, feeling more and more aroused. Just so deeply entranced. The only things running through my mind, is only obedience, only obeying, and that I'm just a pet. Nothing more at the moment. The only thing that is important for me to know right now, is I am just a pet for my master.So deep as I write this.Going deeper as I type, the more I type, the more aroused I feel. Now too deep to keep writing. Dropping more now. I am so deep. I won't even remember writing this, unless my Master tells me to.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

A Song to Your Pet

I heard the sweetest song sung by my little nephew as he softly strung on a little guitar. He sang a sweet song for his pet puppy, saying how she was the best pet and how he loved her. He sang this song he wrote to me and it was funny but it made me long to hear one of my masters sing such a sweet song to me.

Power Struggle

Taken, held down, and enraptured by the Master of my Mind as he thrusted his control deep in my mind. I tried to resist. I even struggled. My Master says I'm cute when I'm mad. I must of been really cute tonight. We never been so agressive with eachother as we were tonight. A little concerned, a lot turned on.

Saturday, February 9, 2013

"Pet Sleep, Jennifer Come Out"

Unexpectedly, the Master of my Mind showed up again. He wanted to keep our appointment. I had been a little down hearted, because he had earlier left me feeling he would not spend time with me tonight. Then as if he knew I needed him, the Master of my Heart paid me a visit and said to me, hurry, call. I was so happy he surprised me like that. We talked briefly on the phone and I felt better and started to smile. Then that's when the Master of my Mind came back to see me. I said night to the Master of my Heart, even though I was still missing him, and went and called the Master of my Mind. I maybe was a bit too submissive for my Master's taste at the start of the call. "Pet sleep, Jennifer come out." My submissive side subsided into a hypnotic slumber. Perhaps he wanted me a bit more challenging to control. I did give him that, for a short while. Until his mood changed once again. Jennifer's control instantly taken from her. Forced back down. Forced to submit to his control. Deeply entranced, Jennifer was made my Master's blank and mindless helpless pet. Waves of arousal washed away everything. I was no longer caring. Soon said night to my Master, but not before he would command me to feel uncontrollably horny for the rest of the night, with no release until morning. It's morning now. Time for my release.

Change of Plans

The Master of my Mind dropped in only to say he couldn't stay, leaving me with out a master for the night. Nothing I can do about it, other than pout. Just a pet, just missing her masters.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Switching Off



I started this blog without giving too much background information about myself or how I got involved with the men I call my masters or the men I've come to call my pets. I also have not yet said how I juggle being a mistress and a pet to these men. As you can imagine, it does keep me busy.

The Master of my Heart is with me all week, that is until the weekend is here. He has tried to make himself available to me even on the weekends, but it has not be easy for him to do so. The Master of my Heart has his another woman in his life, one that has been apart of his life much longer than I have. He spends his weekends with her. I do not mind his relationship with her. In fact, ever since I first met him, and I saw his pictures of him with her as a couple, I thought they made such a sweet couple. I've never seen two people look like they belonged together, like a perfect match, as much as he and his girlfriend did. In their photos you could see that they really loved and adored each other. Reading this, you might wonder why my Master even got involved with me. Well, I was not my Master's first pet. When I met him, he already was a master to several pets he was proud to call his. The list of pets he had was really long when we met. When I met him, I already had a master in my life. The master that was already in my life was the Master of my Mind. I was content belonging to just him. I didn't dream of taking on another master. I wasn't looking for another master. The thing was that the Master of my Mind was and always has been busy with his studies at his university.

So I'm without the Master of my Heart until Sunday. I'll be missing him a lot. But I get the pleasure of enjoying the company of my first master, the Master of my Mind tonight. He seems to always surprise me when I see him. No doubt he has something wicked and naughty planned for us. Maybe it's just wishful thinking. I do so enjoy when my masters are playful and naughty.

A Dirty Pet Needs a Good Bath

I attempted to bathe my pet because she was so dirty. She had soiled herself wet with arousal. I gave her wine and a warm bubble bath and made her bath so inviting. But alas, my pet was disobedient and she refused to take her much needed bath. Will have to think of a good punishment to give to a dirty disobedient pet.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Blank and Mindless

Tonight was interesting as both masters teased me greatly. I had the pleasure of gazing at their irresistable abs. It was a bit much for their pet to take. Both sparking my arousal in their own way. The Master of my Mind leaves me much to look forward to this Friday. I think it will be worth the wait. The last moments of the night spent with my Master of my Heart. He pulled me back deep into his control again. I felt my mind being pulled down so deep. His playful sexy voice whispered to me "only obedience, only obeying". That seductive tone of his drives me over the edge. His voice alone makes me very horny. And before I knew it, I felt deeply controlled. I was held down, bound in a hypnotic bondage, that made me feel again so blank and mindless. I'm loving being my master's blank and mindless pet.

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Just a Pet

Rather unexpectedly tonight I think I experienced complete surrender and submission. It all started with a hypnotic back massage, given by my Master. It was so relaxing, then I don't know how it happened, but my attention to his arousal. Then his arousal became so hypnotic. Sinking deeper and deeper, thoughts of pleasing my Master flashed in my mind. These images began to make me feel so mindless. The closer to his release, the more mindless I became. Then with my Master's climax, I lost my will power completely. Suddenly, I wasn't a pet any more. When he climaxed, I became a slave. A blank mindless slave. He woke me from trance. But I was still very mindless. My eyes were open, but I just stared straight ahead. I had become totally completely submissive. A complete slave. Only starting to feel my mind returning now, but am still not the same. At the moment, I am just a pet. And I'm fine with being that way.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Deeply Satisfied

My weekend is ending sweetly after a wonderful night with the Master of my Heart. We had a bad day yesterday. It was so bad. My Master had misdirected his frustrations at me, his pet. It was painful. It was unfair. He hinted maybe this was good bye, and when he hinted that my heart broke. I didn't deserve to feel like this. All I ever tried to be was a good pet, always trying to make my Master happy. It hurted more because it was unfair and undeserved. My Master has had a lot to be frustrated about though. He is moving into a new apartment, and taking exams for his university courses. I understand his frustrations. He went to bed and woke up realizing the err of his treatment to me. It meant so much that he could admit he was wrong for what he did. I forgave him, wanted to spend the whole night with him. I couldn't though, the Master of my Mind was waiting for me, so the obedient pet I am, I went to him. I am so glad I did.
I had one of the most fun and interesting nights with the Master of my Mind. Again, wanting to comfort me his pet, hypnotized me to forget everything. When it didn't quite work, he still made me forget myself and made me his puppy. After he turned me back, we shared a drink. Actually a few drinks. As he drank back his Blue Sapphire, he hypnotically gave shots of tequila, and I felt every shot he gave me. I got tipsy feeling the effects of the hypnotic drink making my cheeks flush, and feeling tipsy. My Master, also tipsy, was saying so much, and everything was so funny and intesting to me. He did tease me towards the end of the night. He can be irresistably sexy when he talks passionately about the things he could do to me.
The next morning I briefly played with my italian pet. He is still so new to me, but I am working on deepening my control of him. It will be deeper by the end of this week. His mind will be my playground.
I got to chat my first and favorite pet Dan, but we were rudely interrupted. I will need to play with him soon. I miss spending time with him. I miss his sexy british accent.
Evening fell, and the Master of my Heart came to see me. We felt reconnected once again, both of us wanting eachothers company. I wanted to trance my Master, so I did. He let go to me, as I gave my gave my Master a hypnotic wine, and then even as I was trancing him, I remained humbly submissive as I knelt before him, I bathed my Master in a bath, which he did thoroughly enjoy. It felt so good to serve my Master. I would like to do this also for the Master of my Mind, if he would let me.
I said night to my Master, and he went off to bed. When he did, I maybe found a new pet. Not sure yet. I don't like pet collecting, and it's something I frown on.
Morning came for my Master of my Heart and he came to see me again. This time, he took me under and so deep. And I experience sweet ecstasy, he deepened his control over me, deeper than ever before. I felt myself completely and totally under his control, and it made me so deeply aroused. So controlled and so horny, I begged him to touch me and give me release. I ended my night with him deeply satisfied.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Absolutely Glowing

Absolutely glowing from one of the best nights I've ever had with the Master of my Mind. It was so very erotic and exciting, pleasuring me on so many levels. My Master was showed me compassion for what has troubled me the past week. I feel closer to him because he let me know that he cared. Then with deep pleasure, he wiped the week from my mind. There is so much more to why tonight was amazing. Strangely I feel liberated, and yet chained in pleasure. He has the chains wrapped around my mind. He has my subconcious as his servant keeping my mind chained down. As good as this pleasure feels, the dom he's chained down is resisting and she's fighting to break free. She still fights for control, no matter how much pleasure she may feel. Ah but tonight was so very arousing. I can now add being hypnotically spanked and punished by my Master to my experience with hypnosis. Him spanking me was so damn hot. Each spank sent hot arousal through me. Tomorrow he is promising to mess with my mind some more. Can't wait.

And now as lie back back in bed ready to drift into sleep, my thoughts do drift to thinking of the Master of my Heart. I hope he knows that I am thinking of him, and missing him.