ABOUT LAST NIGHT - MINDLESS, DISCONNECTED AND DEEPER THAN EVER BEFORE

After the training session with my Bad Pet last night, I quickly went to find my Master Mats to see him again. He had hinted that he had plans to train me as well. It had been a long time since I had a training session myself. Couldn't wait. 

I called up Master. He answered cool and collect. He always does. Soon as he spoke, it was clear he was focused on the task at hand of training his pet. He went right to it. 

With just two words, I was already very much drifting. It was getting harder to think. He continue to speak softly. Then he said it again, those two words. Another wave hit me, taking me deeper, making it more harder to think. My Master, fully aware how his words were affecting me, showed no mercy. He said those two words to me. He said it again and again. Each time he said my trigger, it kept emptying more and more of my mind. I was feeling so very mindless. Could not make sense of his words. It started to be difficult to speak. 

Feeling myself go blank and mindless in trance is not new to me. But what happened next, changed my view of how deep I could go. What happened next, brought new meaning to being "switched off". What happened next was no ordinary hypnotic trick of the mind. No mere switching off of thought. 

No, what happened next was much more intense that just "Switching Off". More like a complete disconnection of my conscious mind. It felt like someone had pulled the plug. I was aware, somehow, of a numb sensation in front of my head, but inside my head. The numb, dull sensation, felt like it was coming from the frontal lobes of my brain. And what I felt, was the complete lack of brain activity in the frontal lobes of my brain. There was a heaviness on my mind, and it felt like there was no activity happening at all in the front portion of my mind. I noticed my eyesight got dark, but I remembered that the room had lights. A slight panic took place. I started to feel a little scared, and I felt as if suddenly I was falling down into a darkness, as if someone pushed me off a dark cliff. I started breathing fast and sounding scared, and panicked, I realized how part of my brain had turned off, and I had become TRULY MINDLESS. 

I exclaimed "Oh my God! I feel so mindless!" I tried to keep calm, but I felt myself losing more of my mind activity and felt myself dropping deeper off into a black abyss with no bottom and no end. I sounded frightened I know. I exclaimed again "oh my god! oh my god".  My Master who was trancing me, heard the panic in my voice. He immediately stopped hypnotizing me, then immediately started trying to wake me up. He tried once. I didn't respond. He tried again, practically yelling at me to wake up. And although he was yelling, his yelling comforted me. Because it reminded me he was with me and I wasn't alone. I stopped being scared. But I didn't wake up. In that deep trance, I spoke and told him I was ok now, and for him not to worry. He still soon gradually woke me up fully, and I felt feelings and activity return back to my mind.  Both me and Master were in awe of what had happened to me in trance. He is concerned still, but I'm curious, and still want to explore the depths of my mind.

My Bad Pet Returns

All last week one of my pets went missing. He didn't give me notice before disappearing that he might be away for the week. Before he disappeared, he was actually being very good communicating with me through email and text. He was actually becoming a better pet that he ever was. Then, for reasons I'm not yet fully sure of, he was unreachable. He wasn't not replying to messages, not trying to contact me. I started to get concerned. I do worry sometimes for my pets. They are all close to me. I missed him a lot during the week. I wanted him to still keep up with training as well. As the week came to an end, and still no sign of him anywhere, I stopped being concerned, and I started feeling annoyed. Pets who respect their owners make efforts to respond to their owner's messages in a prompt manner. And how long does it really take to reply to message? One minute, maybe less, just to acknowledge your Mistress's message. I began to feel a bit offended with his lack of care, effort, and lack or consideration for my concerns. So as I was talking to my Master Mats, out of no where, my Pet showed up again. I frowned at first. Again, his disappearing and not trying to contact me was disrespectful of him as a pet, so it had put me off. But the frown soon left me and I was just relieved that I could see he was ok. He was apologetic right away, and admits he was a bad pet and should have made a better effort. I forgave him, then trained him. He knew the whole time he was away that he needed his Mistress. Needed her voice. Hopefully he doesn't pull that again soon. I don't expect him to always be a good pet, but I do expect him to try to be.

So my bad pet is on track to being a good pet again, and for that I'm happy. He's still due to be punished later, and he knows it.

To be continued..

My Wolf

Lately, I've been more attentive as a Mistress to my pets. Most of them have no reasons to complain. I've even got to play with one pet that I rarely see, my Wolf. Last week I had The BEST time ever playing with him. He truly went deeper than ever before. I carefully made sure that my hypnosis would shut off his Conscious Mind. Just as planned, his Conscious Mind shut off, and his Subconscious became open to my each and every word, accepting every suggestion I planted in his mind. Letting go to Trance, he became deeply hypnotized. His thoughts drifted. All thoughts and memories left his mind, leaving his mind to be shaped and molded how I pleased. What I wanted was to bring my Wolf out fully, a complete and full shift and switch. I had been wanting deepen his submission and obedience. I also wanted to truly be close to my wolf, as my pet.
I hypnotized my Wolf, taking him deeper than ever before, allowing him to shift fully and completely into the Wolf he is. It was the most amazing experience. To witness it - I was just in awe. The look on his face was so peaceful, and at that moment, I saw that he was Truly Happy. I've never seen him happier. He had the sweetest smile, and I could see, right then and there, he was blissfully happy. He felt everything was good and right - perfect. The joy of finally feeling his True Self, his Wolf, fully emerge. It was an amazing thing to experience and witness. I will never ever forget it. I so loved to see him feeling pure happiness. I felt the happiness of having been the one to have given him that experience. I want to do it all over again.

Pet Progress Reports

Tonight I've thought about each one of my pets and how long of a relationship each one of them has had with me their Mistress. Some time back I expressed in a post that it was my stance that a pet or slave should make progress in their training and that each of my pets should strive to develop as a pets and as people. To evaluate progress, one needs to review it. So in my next blog posts I will be posting Pet Progress Reports.

A Deeper Connection

Last night was quite the intense night for me and my Master. We spent the whole evening together. A night of submitting to eachother. A night if controlling one and other. Just me and him. Nothing else mattered. No one else was important. We deepened our connection, as we went deeper for eachother into trance. I was able to relax enough to forget myself in his care.Then taking turns, taking over. Doing this again and again. I had a wonderful time with my Master. So happy I got to spend so much time with my Master and I am my Master's favorite and number one pet.

My Master's Kitty and His Toy

This week has been rough one for me and my Master. To the point we came close to parting and going our separate ways. During the week, my pets were such a comfort to me. They all genuinely love and care for me their Mistress. I think because as an owner, I'm not overbearing, pushy, or demanding. And because of that, my pets have all truly opened their hearts to really caring for me. I have one long time friend, more than a few times over a decade has always told me "It's easy to love you." Maybe. My pets got me through this week.(Dan, Lucio, David and Pet, I love you guys). Still, as the week was coming to a close, I was feeling the situation was hopeless.

Then last night my Master came to me unexpectedly. I was prepared to see less and less of him. He let me know he had no plans to let that happen. I felt the joy of love lost and having love return. I still felt unsure, even as he started to speak hypnotically to me. I slightly resisted. He continued speaking hypnotically. Resistance melted away. It was no use.My mind is so well trained to his voice that I simply can't refuse him. I did try, and felt my mind surrender in seconds. I slipped into a nice deep sleep for my Master. So deeply entranced, my Master called out his kitty. I felt myself fully transform. Ears, paws, and tail. I let out a meoww, meowing in pleasure. I became his horny obedient kitten. Meowing,and purring. It felt so good. I felt so much pleasure being his kitty again. He played with his kitty. Made her feel loved. That's what I've been needing and wanting. Eventually he woke up his kitten and felt back to normal again.

He had already given me such a wonderful kitty experience. I was certain we were saying goodnight. But he wasn't done with me yet.

My master is more than a kitty maker. He's a toy maker too, and my Master intended to play with me his toy as much as possible. A toy I became. A hypnotized toy for my master, completely under my master's control. I was so deep I slipped under completely blacking out maybe 2 or 3 times. My master stayed with me as I did, pulling my puppet strings, playing with his toy. I woke up in the morning completely naked.

I smiled because I knew my Master had a lot of fun playing with me, his toy.

I'm Back

There is much to be said since I last blogged. Things happened that put me through an emotional roller coaster. I came close to losing some one who has come to be such a part of me. He came back to me, telling me he couldn't live with out me. I'm so happy, because I also couldn't live without him.

Note to Pets

Dear pets, I'm kind of need some time to myself today. There just somethings that I need to think over. I'm sorry, but even though today started off good for me, now I'm a bit confused over something. I'm just really really a loss for words, don't know what to think. I'm sure it will work itself out later but for now - I feel lost.

I'm sure things will normalize later tonight. Miss you all and talk soon.

DOMINATE ME MASTER

It’s been a little over two weeks since I’ve felt truly owned. Yes I have two owners. One of which spends more time with me on a usual basis that the other. For the attention the Master of my Heart gives me on a usual basis, I am grateful. But maybe it was the attention I felt the Master of my Mind was not giving me for weeks that was causing me to feel void in me. It kind of built up to a crescendo. The need in me to feel dominated. To feel owned. Bound. Deeply Controlled. I have been craving all this. I felt unsatisfied. I was able to put my dissatisfaction out of my mind at least for a little while tonight as I went to the theater to catch a movie. I hurried home after the movie finished. I had a date with the Master of my Mind and I did not want to keep him waiting. We spent quite some time together tonight and I loved every minute of it. But towards the end of the night, I found myself blurting out the words I wanted to say.

“Dominate me Master.”

With no hesitation and a fast snap of his fingers, my master commanded me, completely dominant, quickly taking over me.

“Sleep”

My master commanded me, I obeyed. There’s nothing like being taken, hypnotically, with the slight sexual sensual and aggressive manner that the Master of my Mind takes me with his words.

Gently forcing me down into the deep pleasure of submitting to his control.

Reminding me he was my master is just what I needed. Thank you Master for satisfying that need.

Oops

Only because Master commanded it am I writing this at all right now. So feeling giggly, a bit dumb, and silly. I don't know what to write. I just want to paint my nails and bounce my boobs. My master sounded so cute on the phone. Mmmmmthinking of him and his voice is just making me so horny right now. Gosh I just want him to play with my boobs. Hmmmm ooooh I want to bounce and play on his lap. My master's playful horney kitty mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeoww