Sunday Night and Still No Master

I'm up late on this Sunday night working a little on my audio, a little bit of chatting with the boys. But the boy, or rather, I should say man, that is most important is still missing in action.

Does he not know a pet needs to hear from her master once in a while? But he disappears like this and leaves me hanging wondering about him.

I just hope he's ok at least. What bothers me is the many times he's disappeared and I worry about him. 

Anyhow, still working late, and now listening to tunes and drinking coffee. Both help me keep working. 

When I feel I need something to listen to help me keep working, this is one of those tunes.

 

"Special"

I'm living without you
I know all about you
I have run you down into the ground
Spread disease about you over town

I used to adore you
I couldn't control you
There was nothing that I wouldn't do
To keep myself around and close to you

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know
But I've run out of patience
I couldn't care less

I...
I...

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know

I used to amuse you
I knew that I'd lose you
Now you're here and begging for a chance
But there's no way in hell I'd take you back

Do you have an opinion?
A mind of your own?
I thought you were special
I thought you should know
But I've run out of patience
I've run out of comments
I'm tired of the violence
I couldn't care less

I'm looking for a new

We were the talk of the town

I thought you were special

Training My Pet

It's felt like forever since I've spent time with any pet. Not getting any time with either one of them, I haven't been able to keep them trained. And I've been missing them both so much. So when my Lucio popped up last night I told him right away - Time to train.

I relaxed my pet before driving him deep for me. My pet is a good pet. He never resists, nor could he ever resist. He was reminded of the control I have over him right away. He was reminded of his collar and his leash. His collar reminding him he was owned. He is mine, my property. He knows it now for sure. He was trained this and now will be better behaved than he already is because of it.

A Sunday Night with out my Master

Keeping myself entertained this Sunday night. Master had said he would be around tonight but I had the feeling he would not be. So when I didn't see him tonight, can't say I was let down. It's quite alright. I worked earlier on a recording and made a hypnosis video. Just a Deep Relaxation video. I know most viewers want me to be a mistress all the time, always dominating and controlling them. But this kind of hypnosis could be good for them. People need to relax sometimes. I always need to relax. That's the funny thing about being a hypnotist doing what I do. I probably need to relax way more than most people watching my videos or listening to my audios.

I was pensive today. Reflecting. Taking a look at things that are troubling me, and thinking of how I can try to help things get better. Wanting to do the right thing. 

I've always been misunderstood. I wish people would practice empathy more often. If they did, they would maybe not be so cruel, or selfish. They would be kinder. The world would be a better place because people would not go about doing things, taking things and just thinking about themselves. I have always been the kind of person thinking of others. And what they are going through. I try to be a good person. A helpful person. A caring person. That's one thing my parents did good in raising me. Do unto others, as you want done to you. 

Anyway, tonight isn't a night to be dominated, or to dominate. It's not a night to be a mistress or be a pet. Not even a night to trance or be tranced. Tonight is about me, myself, and I. And maybe being a friend to my good friend Mats. He games, and I watch the Season 6 premiere of True Blood. Whooo hooooo. The wait is over. I hope it doesn't suck. I know this is the last season for True Blood so hopefully this last season is a good one.

True Blood Season 6 Trailer

One last note, I did say tonight is not a night for being a mistress. However, I have been wondering how my pets are doing. Missing them a lot. Both are quite busy this summer. So I may not be playing too much with pets this summer. Although this is one pet I occasionally play with. He is only a part time pet of mine, when he feels in the mood to submit to me. I always enjoy when he lets me dominate him. I do love training him in his briefs or nothing at all. When he wants to be a pet, he is always the best pet. I am craving to play with my Pet again. Maybe he'll crave to have his mistress control him again soon. Alright, thinking of my Pet in his briefs is making me too horny. 

Back to watching the True Blood Season 6 premiere!

Good night everybody!

Watch Out What You Wish for..

Spending time right now with Peter, a man who has always put me first. Talking to him makes me miss simpler times. He's always been there to hug me and show he's always cared for me. He's been one of the most unselfish men in my life. 

I'm also finding music is also making me feel better. This song goes out to you. You know who you are.

 

"Celebrity Skin"

Oh, make me over
I'm all I wanna be
A walking study
In demonology

Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you've really made it
Hey, so glad you could make it now

Oh, look at my face
My name is might have been
My name is never was
My name's forgotten

Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you've really made it
Hey, there's only us left now

When I wake up in my makeup
It's too early for that dress
Wilted and faded somewhere in Hollywood
I'm glad I came here with your pound of flesh
No second billing 'cause you're a star now
Oh, Cinderella, they aren't sluts like you
Beautiful garbage, beautiful dresses
Can you stand up or will you just fall down?

You better watch out
Oh, what you wish for
It better be worth it
So much to die for

Hey, so glad you could make it
Yeah, now you've really made it
Hey, there's only us left now

When I wake up in my makeup
Have you ever felt so used up as this?
It's all so sugarless, hooker/waitress
Model/actress, oh, just go nameless!
Honeysuckle, she's full of poison
She obliterated everything she kissed
Now she's fading somewhere in Hollywood
I'm glad I came here with your pound of flesh

You want a part of me?
Well, I'm not selling cheap
No, I'm not selling cheap

CLOSING A CHAPTER: GOODBYE MASTER OF MY HEART

This should of been written some time ago. I just haven't gotten to it because frankly I didn't care to make "announcements" to make to the public only to satisfy the needs of one or two people on the planet who need to see the words in black and white so they can sleep better at night. 

So here it is, so that those one or two people can rest better knowing that I've finally announced that...

Mats vi britannia,  formerly the Master of my Heart,  has dropped me as his pet. I am his pet no more. What me and Mats shared was truly meaningful, and memorable. And now it's over. He can move on now and be happy with his one and only pet. But that pet is not me. I wish them well and can only say is good luck. 

Mats, I really loved you. You meant so much to me in the short time I was allowed to share you as a master. You taught me a lot. I'm sorry I was not what you wanted, and wasn't enough for you to try to keep.  I respected you. I learned more than just what it is to be a good pet. I learned that nothing is forever and I learned that I need to let go. I hope you two are happy. You can read this and move on.

Master's Property

Last night I met with Master briefly. He congratulated me on a job well done having worked so hard the past months as a rising hypnodomme with a fairly large following. I had reached a milestone of which Master had told me in advance how I was to celebrate this event - He had specifically told me I was to masterbate, bringing myself to orgasm 5 TIMES. No less. So the night finally arrived. As soon as we exchanged hellos and he congratulated me, he then asked the question -

"Tell me Pet. Did you touch for your master?

For a moment, I had forgotten. Oh right! I quickly responded oh right, to celebrate. No not yet Master.

"Pet after we are done talking, you are to lock the door. You are to take off any clothing that is covering my property. That means all clothing. You are to touch. You to not stop, unable to stop, until you have cum 5 times at least. Do you understand?"

I responded "I understand."

Master went on -

"Good girl. I know you are a good pet. The Best Pet. "

Master playfully threaten if I did not touch now, I may not get permission for a long time.

"A long time?" This made me concerned.

"Don't worry Pet. I like keeping you happy and horny. "


He had worried me a little.

"Sshhh. Just let yourself be comfortable as my pet. You earned this. You want this. You need this. You crave this. You do such a good job pleasing me. Don't worry. We'll train you more. Soon you'll be the perfect pet. I want you to take care of my property. Remember - you can do anything for your master."

Master is good to remind me my body is not my own. I am Master's collared pet, and my body is his property.

Master's New Slave and Servant

This is the continuation of the communications between me and my first master. In the last post, my master identified himself for the first time to me as my master. In my reply to his message, is the first time I identify myself as a slave and servant. 

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August 4, 2012

hmm, I made you curious? wow

you still haven't told me how you got into this hypno stuff to begin with, but as I view your videos more and more, I am now also curious as to how you  got into bondage. I think most men are, just some don't admit it. And on some level or other, women do have it in them too. Women love being dominated, some love to dominate. I have a little of both. I love it when a man makes you submit to him, I'm not talking rape. I'm talking passion, like when he takes me and pushed me against a wall, or presses against me forcing me to feel his excitement, so big and thick, pressing against me stiffly. Or when he forces me to be turned on by kissing and licking my ear and neck knowing that it instantly makes me so horny and hot. See, that's not rape, and it's not cuffs or a collar or Master and Servant - But it is using my body against me, or taking what he knows about my pleasure spots and triggers me to full arousal which is still forcing me to submit to his will because he's triggered me to have no choice or option but to give in to the pleasure. It's like this for all women I think. 

I love when a man is slightly forceful.

Then the other side of the coin is that I love to tease a man to the point he wants to cum badly and make him delay it as much as possible, and long before seeing your videos, I had a guy I did that with, and I always ordered him not to cum until I told him he could. I give good phone sex. He would beg me to let him cum, and when he came he would let me hear him. 

Ok, what I might be doing for you,  I'd rather just show you and get your opinion. Consider it my gift for you for what you've done for me. 

I'll send you something, I'm not sure what yet, maybe on a word document. Just promise me you'll look at it and give me feedback soon. 

P.S. - I still would like to know if you moonlight as a hypnotist or is it a full time career, and how you learned it. And I am really curious how you yourself don't fall into trance just recording yourself for your videos. That must be so hard to do, unless you've trained yourself not to fall into trance.How do you do that?  And don't forget to tell me about your own experience with bondage.

Oh, and Master, you have thousands of slaves. I, however, am not doing your bidding at the moment. I am however serving you by helping with your website. So I guess I can be your special "slave". I'll just refer to myself as Servant. (You really should make a vid with a "Super Slave" as new trigger. Don't know what you would make a Super Slave do but wow we can come up with something I'm sure ha ha)

- Servant

Officially Collared

I had previously posted my first message to my master. His reply to that first message was cordial. He was very much a gentleman in his first mail to me. I responded back, and offered him help for his website.

He replied back again. This time with this email message -

"I am curious what will you be doing?

-Master- "


And that was the first time master identified himself as a master to me.

This was the start of my submission. A man I just met, not for too long, presented himself to me as master, and I didn't shy away. I welcomed it. Master he became. I willingly gave in to being his slave, his servant, his pet. But mainly servant. It would be a long while before I would feel like a pet or a slave. I subbed to master in August 2012. I became his pet in December 2012.

Now it is May 2013 and my submission deepens as I'm transitioning once again. I am now his Slave, as Master has now officially purchased me a beautiful chrome collar. It will arrive in a week.

Feeling a big smile come to my face knowing my Master loves his pet and is proud to own me and finally collaring me making me his official property. It will be the best birthday present ever.

Master Meets Servant - First Contact

When I started this blog I dove right in with little information on who Jennifer James was and how she got herself involved with two masters as well as her initial desent into submission and the development of the mistress I am today.

I intend to tell the story of how I met each of my wonderful masters. For now, I'll begin at the Beginning, starting with how I met my first master - the Master of my Mind.

My journey down the road of submission started a litttle under a year ago back last July. My curiosity for hypnosis led me to meet my first master (the Master of my Mind). Back then before meeting my master, all I knew about him was that he was a popular online hypnotist that produced hypnosis videos. I had become a fan of the videos he made. Eventually, I became too damn curious. I needed to write the man who had me captivated with his voice and hypnotic talent for all of July. I contacted him August 2nd.

Here is my "fan mail" to my would-be first master. Yeah I was a bit open with him right away =) :

It would be nice to see a title or
decription of each of the videos on your website. Not knowing before the start of a video then falling into trance could
leave the viewer watching a video that they otherwise maybe would not
prefer. Knowing this was the possible danger for me, yet curiosity
getting the better of me I watched 2 of them. The first was just
great. Very kinky. I dig that.
When I was younger, maybe 21 (I'm 34
now) I had my first encounter with the master and servant, before that
the closest I got to it was only Depeche Modes' Master & Servant.
Anyhow, I was with my boyfriend at the time, the first time getting
sexual with him and it was in his office at his work on a Saturday
when no one was in the building, a high rise building a few stories
high. He was much older than I was, he was 43. He fingered me as I sat
in his office chair and he stood behind me as he breathed on my neck
and ear ( that was deeply arousing on it's own) - and as I was close
to orgasm, with his lips to my ear he demanded "who's your master?"
and he pushed his fingers in me deeper and harder. He kept asking
until I came. At first- when he asked that, it startled me because I
wasn't prepared for it but it quickly turned me on to being dominated,
and liking the feeling.
However, he never got to choke me like you did just now!
Naughty naughty .
I was caught of guard once again.
I'm a bit afraid to watch another one. Should I be? Please advice.
It did make me cum though =)

Sailing Away

Friday here and no sign of Pet. No sign of David or Lucio. My Dan has remained close by. It feels like we're growing closer. Although the men I'm supposed to be closest to feel like they're drifting further from me. Feels like I'm adrift on a boat at sea, with out a paddle. Just drifting and no one's coming for me.

THE SLAVE EXPERIMENT

Today me and my Master Mats had a little fun with an experiment.  I had been curious if I could be made to feel deeply enslaved. As if I was born to be a slave, or made to feel as if I always have been a slave. As if it is my total and complete existence.

What would it be like to feel such extreme slavery? Where being a slave to my master was my life’s purpose. Being made to feel the need to serve and please him as strong of a need as the need to breathe air. A deeper enslavement, where a slave becomes addicted to her master.  Could I be made to feel so Deeply Enslaved?  We decided to do go forward with the Slave Experiment.

I gave my master permission to conduct an experiment with me as his test subject with one condition – 

That he would so promise to return me back to my normal by the end of the session and experiment. Only then would I agree to subject myself to be experimented on. I had to trust my master not to leave me permanently feeling deeply enslaved. He kind of joked that he was going to leave me like that, making me uneasy. So, I asked him straight out – “Master, can I trust you?”.  There as a slightly pause, then he answered yes, I could.

My Master would throw some extras into the experiment. Essentially, he planned to first take me Ultra Deep into hypnosis. Once he had me that deep, he would then proceed to wipe my mind clean of my memories. Then he would plant the suggestions to make me an extremely deeply submissive slave.

The Slave Experiment

The Purpose of the Experiment 

To test how deeply enslaved I could be made to feel. To push me deeper into Submission that ever before, with the goal of the experiment to make me feel extremely enslaved – a Super Slave. 

Here is what happened during the experiment:

1. Master hypnotized me taking me Ultra Deep.

2. Master wiped my mind clean of all memories.

3. Master planted the suggestion that I was always a slave and it was my life purpose.

4. I told made to believe he is my one and only master.

5. I was made to forget ever knowing anyone else in the hypnosis community. I was made to forget all other hypno masters, pets, hypno friends – everyone but him.

6. Master planted the suggestions of being addicted to my master and addicted to pleasing, obeying, and serving him.

7. I was made to believe all I am, or ever was, is a pet and a slave, nothing more. Therefore I was made to believe that I am not nor ever was a mistress.

8. My name was Sarah, a super slave, deeply submissive to my master.

9. I am told I am 25, and my master’s slut.

The Experiment Tested and the Results

After the suggestions we planted, he tested them out. He spoke the trigger. I performed as expected. I identified myself as Sarah, 25 years old, and my master’s super slave. When asked, I could not remember ever knowing any other hypnotist, just my master. I could not remember anyone else in the hypnosis community. I was hit with a need to serve and obey my master. Then, as my master’s slut, I was hit soon after by arousal and horniness. Indeed, I was Sarah, my master’s horny super slave and slut.

Conclusion

I’m still not fully convinced that I was enslaved enough. I did not feel as extremely enslaved as I wanted to feel during the experiment. Master and me will have to test out the experiment of deeply enslaving me again. I hope very soon. 

Lucio's Pet Assignment

1.) One thing you like about yourself:

My intelligence

2.) 3 things you are grateful for:

My friends,My Mistress,that I can eat whatever I want without gaining weight.

3.) Something you learned today:

I've learnt that bacon shrinks a lot when fried

4.) One thing your Mistress did for you today:

She made me feel wonderful and horny

A New Hope

My Co-Writer paid me a visit today. It's been a long time since I've seen him, or sat down with him to work together. It was really good to see him again. Him making the time for me, showing me an effort, meant the world to me. I had for a while, gently tried to lure him back to work with me. It was seeming hopeless. I was feeling despair. Then this afternoon, he popped up, saying "want to write?"  Hell yes I wanted to write! It's been a long week for me, it was just dragging. Issues in my family. Having visitors staying the week. It was a small set back. I hadn't had much to smile about since the week started. My co-writer showing up for work again gave me something to smile about. I hope he continues making efforts for me, and for us.

Crossing my fingers.

Alone and On My Own

I feel really down at the moment. I had someone I wanted to count on. We worked together and for a small while, I felt good to know I wasn't alone in this. Working on projects, collaborating. I was elated. But my writer is busy working on other projects, and accepting applications to team he has joined. Leaving the "team" me and him used to be. I feel so alone and let down. Really as I write this I want to cry. He is happy with his new team. At least I did pay him for work he did for me and was going to keep paying him more. I know his new team will pay him zero, nothing. But the team that will pay him zero is his priority. I miss my co-writer. I wish he missed co-writing with me too.

ABOUT LAST NIGHT - MINDLESS, DISCONNECTED AND DEEPER THAN EVER BEFORE

After the training session with my Bad Pet last night, I quickly went to find my Master Mats to see him again. He had hinted that he had plans to train me as well. It had been a long time since I had a training session myself. Couldn't wait. 

I called up Master. He answered cool and collect. He always does. Soon as he spoke, it was clear he was focused on the task at hand of training his pet. He went right to it. 

With just two words, I was already very much drifting. It was getting harder to think. He continue to speak softly. Then he said it again, those two words. Another wave hit me, taking me deeper, making it more harder to think. My Master, fully aware how his words were affecting me, showed no mercy. He said those two words to me. He said it again and again. Each time he said my trigger, it kept emptying more and more of my mind. I was feeling so very mindless. Could not make sense of his words. It started to be difficult to speak. 

Feeling myself go blank and mindless in trance is not new to me. But what happened next, changed my view of how deep I could go. What happened next, brought new meaning to being "switched off". What happened next was no ordinary hypnotic trick of the mind. No mere switching off of thought. 

No, what happened next was much more intense that just "Switching Off". More like a complete disconnection of my conscious mind. It felt like someone had pulled the plug. I was aware, somehow, of a numb sensation in front of my head, but inside my head. The numb, dull sensation, felt like it was coming from the frontal lobes of my brain. And what I felt, was the complete lack of brain activity in the frontal lobes of my brain. There was a heaviness on my mind, and it felt like there was no activity happening at all in the front portion of my mind. I noticed my eyesight got dark, but I remembered that the room had lights. A slight panic took place. I started to feel a little scared, and I felt as if suddenly I was falling down into a darkness, as if someone pushed me off a dark cliff. I started breathing fast and sounding scared, and panicked, I realized how part of my brain had turned off, and I had become TRULY MINDLESS. 

I exclaimed "Oh my God! I feel so mindless!" I tried to keep calm, but I felt myself losing more of my mind activity and felt myself dropping deeper off into a black abyss with no bottom and no end. I sounded frightened I know. I exclaimed again "oh my god! oh my god".  My Master who was trancing me, heard the panic in my voice. He immediately stopped hypnotizing me, then immediately started trying to wake me up. He tried once. I didn't respond. He tried again, practically yelling at me to wake up. And although he was yelling, his yelling comforted me. Because it reminded me he was with me and I wasn't alone. I stopped being scared. But I didn't wake up. In that deep trance, I spoke and told him I was ok now, and for him not to worry. He still soon gradually woke me up fully, and I felt feelings and activity return back to my mind.  Both me and Master were in awe of what had happened to me in trance. He is concerned still, but I'm curious, and still want to explore the depths of my mind.

My Bad Pet Returns

All last week one of my pets went missing. He didn't give me notice before disappearing that he might be away for the week. Before he disappeared, he was actually being very good communicating with me through email and text. He was actually becoming a better pet that he ever was. Then, for reasons I'm not yet fully sure of, he was unreachable. He wasn't not replying to messages, not trying to contact me. I started to get concerned. I do worry sometimes for my pets. They are all close to me. I missed him a lot during the week. I wanted him to still keep up with training as well. As the week came to an end, and still no sign of him anywhere, I stopped being concerned, and I started feeling annoyed. Pets who respect their owners make efforts to respond to their owner's messages in a prompt manner. And how long does it really take to reply to message? One minute, maybe less, just to acknowledge your Mistress's message. I began to feel a bit offended with his lack of care, effort, and lack or consideration for my concerns. So as I was talking to my Master Mats, out of no where, my Pet showed up again. I frowned at first. Again, his disappearing and not trying to contact me was disrespectful of him as a pet, so it had put me off. But the frown soon left me and I was just relieved that I could see he was ok. He was apologetic right away, and admits he was a bad pet and should have made a better effort. I forgave him, then trained him. He knew the whole time he was away that he needed his Mistress. Needed her voice. Hopefully he doesn't pull that again soon. I don't expect him to always be a good pet, but I do expect him to try to be.

So my bad pet is on track to being a good pet again, and for that I'm happy. He's still due to be punished later, and he knows it.

To be continued..

My Wolf

Lately, I've been more attentive as a Mistress to my pets. Most of them have no reasons to complain. I've even got to play with one pet that I rarely see, my Wolf. Last week I had The BEST time ever playing with him. He truly went deeper than ever before. I carefully made sure that my hypnosis would shut off his Conscious Mind. Just as planned, his Conscious Mind shut off, and his Subconscious became open to my each and every word, accepting every suggestion I planted in his mind. Letting go to Trance, he became deeply hypnotized. His thoughts drifted. All thoughts and memories left his mind, leaving his mind to be shaped and molded how I pleased. What I wanted was to bring my Wolf out fully, a complete and full shift and switch. I had been wanting deepen his submission and obedience. I also wanted to truly be close to my wolf, as my pet.
I hypnotized my Wolf, taking him deeper than ever before, allowing him to shift fully and completely into the Wolf he is. It was the most amazing experience. To witness it - I was just in awe. The look on his face was so peaceful, and at that moment, I saw that he was Truly Happy. I've never seen him happier. He had the sweetest smile, and I could see, right then and there, he was blissfully happy. He felt everything was good and right - perfect. The joy of finally feeling his True Self, his Wolf, fully emerge. It was an amazing thing to experience and witness. I will never ever forget it. I so loved to see him feeling pure happiness. I felt the happiness of having been the one to have given him that experience. I want to do it all over again.

Pet Progress Reports

Tonight I've thought about each one of my pets and how long of a relationship each one of them has had with me their Mistress. Some time back I expressed in a post that it was my stance that a pet or slave should make progress in their training and that each of my pets should strive to develop as a pets and as people. To evaluate progress, one needs to review it. So in my next blog posts I will be posting Pet Progress Reports.

A Deeper Connection

Last night was quite the intense night for me and my Master. We spent the whole evening together. A night of submitting to eachother. A night if controlling one and other. Just me and him. Nothing else mattered. No one else was important. We deepened our connection, as we went deeper for eachother into trance. I was able to relax enough to forget myself in his care.Then taking turns, taking over. Doing this again and again. I had a wonderful time with my Master. So happy I got to spend so much time with my Master and I am my Master's favorite and number one pet.

My Master's Kitty and His Toy

This week has been rough one for me and my Master. To the point we came close to parting and going our separate ways. During the week, my pets were such a comfort to me. They all genuinely love and care for me their Mistress. I think because as an owner, I'm not overbearing, pushy, or demanding. And because of that, my pets have all truly opened their hearts to really caring for me. I have one long time friend, more than a few times over a decade has always told me "It's easy to love you." Maybe. My pets got me through this week.(Dan, Lucio, David and Pet, I love you guys). Still, as the week was coming to a close, I was feeling the situation was hopeless.

Then last night my Master came to me unexpectedly. I was prepared to see less and less of him. He let me know he had no plans to let that happen. I felt the joy of love lost and having love return. I still felt unsure, even as he started to speak hypnotically to me. I slightly resisted. He continued speaking hypnotically. Resistance melted away. It was no use.My mind is so well trained to his voice that I simply can't refuse him. I did try, and felt my mind surrender in seconds. I slipped into a nice deep sleep for my Master. So deeply entranced, my Master called out his kitty. I felt myself fully transform. Ears, paws, and tail. I let out a meoww, meowing in pleasure. I became his horny obedient kitten. Meowing,and purring. It felt so good. I felt so much pleasure being his kitty again. He played with his kitty. Made her feel loved. That's what I've been needing and wanting. Eventually he woke up his kitten and felt back to normal again.

He had already given me such a wonderful kitty experience. I was certain we were saying goodnight. But he wasn't done with me yet.

My master is more than a kitty maker. He's a toy maker too, and my Master intended to play with me his toy as much as possible. A toy I became. A hypnotized toy for my master, completely under my master's control. I was so deep I slipped under completely blacking out maybe 2 or 3 times. My master stayed with me as I did, pulling my puppet strings, playing with his toy. I woke up in the morning completely naked.

I smiled because I knew my Master had a lot of fun playing with me, his toy.

I'm Back

There is much to be said since I last blogged. Things happened that put me through an emotional roller coaster. I came close to losing some one who has come to be such a part of me. He came back to me, telling me he couldn't live with out me. I'm so happy, because I also couldn't live without him.

Note to Pets

Dear pets, I'm kind of need some time to myself today. There just somethings that I need to think over. I'm sorry, but even though today started off good for me, now I'm a bit confused over something. I'm just really really a loss for words, don't know what to think. I'm sure it will work itself out later but for now - I feel lost.

I'm sure things will normalize later tonight. Miss you all and talk soon.

DOMINATE ME MASTER

It’s been a little over two weeks since I’ve felt truly owned. Yes I have two owners. One of which spends more time with me on a usual basis that the other. For the attention the Master of my Heart gives me on a usual basis, I am grateful. But maybe it was the attention I felt the Master of my Mind was not giving me for weeks that was causing me to feel void in me. It kind of built up to a crescendo. The need in me to feel dominated. To feel owned. Bound. Deeply Controlled. I have been craving all this. I felt unsatisfied. I was able to put my dissatisfaction out of my mind at least for a little while tonight as I went to the theater to catch a movie. I hurried home after the movie finished. I had a date with the Master of my Mind and I did not want to keep him waiting. We spent quite some time together tonight and I loved every minute of it. But towards the end of the night, I found myself blurting out the words I wanted to say.

“Dominate me Master.”

With no hesitation and a fast snap of his fingers, my master commanded me, completely dominant, quickly taking over me.

“Sleep”

My master commanded me, I obeyed. There’s nothing like being taken, hypnotically, with the slight sexual sensual and aggressive manner that the Master of my Mind takes me with his words.

Gently forcing me down into the deep pleasure of submitting to his control.

Reminding me he was my master is just what I needed. Thank you Master for satisfying that need.

Oops

Only because Master commanded it am I writing this at all right now. So feeling giggly, a bit dumb, and silly. I don't know what to write. I just want to paint my nails and bounce my boobs. My master sounded so cute on the phone. Mmmmmthinking of him and his voice is just making me so horny right now. Gosh I just want him to play with my boobs. Hmmmm ooooh I want to bounce and play on his lap. My master's playful horney kitty mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmeoww

AT LAST - PART TWO

"Is this the real life? Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide, No escape from reality
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see..
easy come, easy go, Little high, little low
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me .."

Fred Mercury
Queen ~ "Bohemian Rhapsody"
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I wasn't alone with my thoughts for too long. Because even though my last message to the Master of my Heart was telling him I'm sorry for being a bother to him, he didn't let go. I was alone with my thoughts only for a few minutes, when I heard a message notication. It was Mats, the Master of my Heart. He was still messaging me. And he stopped scolding me. "No hard feelings." A little shocked that he was so quickly forgiving me, but so relieved that he did. He started to comfort me, telling how things will soon be back to normal after next Tuesday. Then he cheekily joked "That'll be on hell of a brainwashing I'll be doing." I couldn't help it. I had to laugh and smile. Just him saying that changed the night for me. I was feeling badly before he said that. When he said it, everything bad melted away and I felt good again.

I joked back to him "I might not be so easily washed" Next Tuesday was four days away, and I was already not feeling like a pet. By next Tuesday, at the rate I was going, I might not be a pet at all.

The next words that he writes me - "Well I better train you today then eh?"
My inner kitty's ears perked up, full attention. What? Did he say train me? Today? Started to feel excitement, and so happy! But did he mean it and could he really train me when he wad not alone and had company over?

Then he says "me feels like going back into the bedroom and train you for a few hours."

My inner kitty hopped up with joy! He did mean it! He meant it. I was so hippity-hoppity with happiness, I should of been a bunny-rabbit at that moment, instead of a collared kitty-cat.

Me and my master use Skype for all of our phone conversations, but never had it mobiley installed, til now. He installed it. It was time to make a test phone call. I called him. He answered. It was working. Next on my Master's agenda - training his pet.

On the phone, I listened to my Master's voice speaking to me softly and quietly. He whispered to me. Resistance is futile when he whispers to me. It's my weakness. It's my own observation that of the many times he's hypnotized me over the mere period of 4 months, my mind drops into trance fastest when he uses a whisper than just speaking in his hypnotic voice. His voice is so soothing when he whispers to me. I instantly feel calm and at ease. When he whispers me into trance, both my body and mind become so obedient-instant relaxing and obeying his every suggestion and command. I don't have to try. I don't have to think. It's automatic. When Master whispers to me, there's no choice, I automatically obey.

"DROP. Drop deep for your Master."

Yes Master. I dropped. I obeyed. I listened intently. Taking in each and every word. Then dropping so fast. Deeper and deeper. I wasn't just drifting. I wasn't just sinking into trance. I was free falling at a fast rate.

Just like Alice went Down the Rabbit Hole, I fell into a deep trance incredibly fast. Each moment, the depth of the trance went deeper. I just kept slipping deeper and deeper into it. Master kept pushing me deeper down. It was becoming harder to speak. Imagine the helpless feeling of being unable to move. The effects of being so deeply hypnotized, as am intense trance took hold of me. It gripped me. There was no breaking from my Master's grasp. He had complete and total over me. Unable to resist, my body and mind surrendered to him. I was helpless. And I was quickly losing my ability to speak.

He asked me to describe what I was feeling. He commanded me to still use my voice. Feeling deeper than ever before, I had to force words out. They came out slowly. I told him if I could see myself, what I would see is myself lying on my back in bed, staring up blankly at the ceiling, no thoughts, just listening to him.

I heard myself gasp in helpless amazement "Master, I feel so mindless. So blank. I can't believe how mindless I'm feeling. I can't believe it!"

At that point I really was feeling it. Strongly. These words were coming out of me and wasn't even aware of what I was saying. Words were just coming out of my mouth.

He kept me calm and relaxed. Making me feel safe with his voice. That only made the trance stronger. It made me go deeper. Then as if someone pushed me off a cliff - I fell. All the way down to the very bottom. The great dark abyss of my mind. I switched off. Completely. My conscious mind totally switched off. When this happens to me, I stop being just a pet. It's a transformation. A metamorphasis. No longer just a pet. I become a slave. A slave with no thoughts unless I'm told to think something. No feelings unless my Master tells me to feel them. Just a slave. An empty shell. So blank and mindless. And so completely under his control.

But he didn't take advantage. He just let me enjoy it. Then all on it's, with out him even trying, my whole being surrendered it. The most unusual sensation came over me. I felt like I had left my body, and it felt like my spirit was floating on a cloud. It wasn't just a feeling. Somehow, this out of body trip was so intense, I could almost really see the clouds all around me. This was no mere trance. I was Ultradeep.

All I felt was pleasure tingling through my body. This kind of pleasure is not the sexual kind, although it easily can switch to that feeling. It was euphoria. I felt like I was on Ecstacy. I felt high and in a mindless bliss. I was so at peace, that I could of died and it wouldn't have mattered.

Nothing mattered. Everything felt perfect. Nothing else existed. I didn't even exist. My own spirit, my energy, became one with the world. It became part of the big whole. The Big Picture. I could feel the energy of the universe, and I was being pulled into it.

He woke me from trance, euphoria still lingering in me. I was almost a loss for words.

In awe of the whole experience, I simply said "THAT was AMAZING!"

AT LAST - PART ONE

I endured a long week of little quality time with neither the Master of my Heart nor the Master of my Mind. I only spent a few moments a day this week exchanging a few texts with Mats, the Master of my Heart. Even though he has not been alone all week because he has company, he's still has made an effort to talk to me (exchanging texts at least), checking on me and how I am doing. I notice he's been trying to do that for me. It is appreciated.

Back a few weeks ago the Master of my Mind was also making efforts for me to spend at least a few minutes a day with me. At the time he wanted to remind me of my collar and remind me that I was his pet, and needed to be trained. So he trained me perhaps 3 nights in a row, each night an intense session if obedience and submitting to his control over me. It was his intention to do this regularly, but Master has a demanding schedule of college courses, projects, and campus activites that keep him always busy. Although seeing him daily didn't last, his effort to spend more time with me was also noted and appreciated.

So back to the present, having little quality time with neither master this week left me feeling a little down. Then I've had to also deal with Dan's choice to not be a pet, my pet, anymore. I felt a bit emotionally drained. Still, my pets Lucio and David have kept me smiling with their sweet messages. They both are becoming dear to me.

However, feeling somewhat distant from my masters left me not feeling very pet-like at all. And when Dan left, I even felt I was losing the desire to still be a mistress. I was losing the desire to be a pet or a mistress at all. Stressed, and being a little depressed was finally getting to me.

Then it just seemed to get worse yesterday afternoon. The Master of my Heart was texting me when Dan popped up on a text message. Being that Dan and I have recently ended our mistress-pet relationship, when Dan messaged, I wanted to hear what he had to say. However, I made the mistake of not taking a moment first to tell my master to wait. When I said bye to Dan, and messaged my master again, he made a point to be stern with me. He was understanding, but scolded me for not telling him first before talking to Dan. I see I was wrong not to. It's just manners, and as my Master, I shouldn't have made him wait. Being scolded, even gently, made me feel worse. He went to bed, saying he would wake in 5 hours.

Now for mistake number two of the day. When he told me he would wake in 5 hours I should of right then looked at the clock to note the time and what time it would be for me in 5 hours. But I didnt, because I somehow fell asleep myself as he was going to bed. His last words of the night had made me lightly entranced, but suffering from insomnia all week, trance quickly turned into actual sleep I had been lacking and needed. So I didn't note the time. I fell asleep.

I'm used to my Master not waking too early. I know more or less when he would wake up. But, it surprised me to see him awake earlier than usual. He had said in 5 hours, but had forgetten that he said it. I messaged him, "You're here?" He responded. He sounded mad with me. He was scolding again, told me I was an hour late. I felt defeated. I just kept messing up, making him mad with me. I felt like a terrible pet. I didn't know what to say to defend myself. It was useless. Feeling defeated, and unwanted, I wrote him "Sorry I bothered you". I signed out of messenger wanting to be alone with my thoughts.

But the night wasn't over, and the Master of my Heart wasn't through with me yet.

To be continued...

To My Dan

To my first pet Dan -
Though I'm sad to see you go, I still have the memories I cherish of times I've shared with you. Remembering how I learned hypnosis by first practicing on you. You were always such a good subject. Always dropping deep. Remembering how we went from friends to owner and pet, and again you helped me learn something that was new to me - I learned how to be a Mistress with you as my first pet. All the while I always wanted the best for you. I wanted you to always do well in school. I wanted you to do well with the ladies. I wanted you to get along with your family. Right now as I write this, I hear your british accent in my head. It always made me smile. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you. Thank you for relaxing me and trancing me. Thank you for not judging me with the complexities of my personality. You always accepted me, whether I was Jen, or your Mistress. You accepted how complex I was when others did not. I'll always love you and care about you. I'll miss you Dan. Good luck.

My Masters Condition Their Pet

So last night I had the pleasure of hearing both my masters voices. The Master of my Mind surprised me by unexpectedly conditioning me, and he had fun as he did. I didn't know I had it in me to speak with a french accent, but that's exactly what happened and I could do nothing about it. My master was quite amused. He said he wanted me to stay that way. Very funny. I'm happy to entertain. My time under his control last night was fun and trippy. Time spent with the Master of my Mind is a treat because I don't get to hear his voice very often. Despite that, I still tried to playful resist. I tried. Maybe I couldn't resist because really, maybe I didn't want to. I still believe I can. Just not motivated enough to fully resist.

I attempted to do the same with the Master of my Heart who also conditioned me last night but he didn't use trance so much to do that. Rather, he used his authority over me as my master to condition me. And he was very much in the mood to condition me that way, after he read a script I wrote on dominating women. The Master of my Heart, already on his own is very dominant. But reading my script brought out his dominant side even more so. I fould myself being put in my place. I didn't resist much out of respect for him as my master.

That is my duty as his pet. As it is the duty of my pets to respect my authority over them. I'm a patient loving mistress. I'm gentle when I dominate, however I could be more stern. But my pets have been good to me, not needing much discipline. My only wish right now is that I wish I could spend more time with them.

The Long and Winding Road

Been reflecting a lot lately on how I've changed since I started this current chapter of my life. Also how the relationship I have with certain people have evolved in such a short amount of time. I reflect and remember how we first met, I remember how we used to be. I look back fondly. I cherish my memories. Not that I haven't enjoyed the ride down the long and winding road of becoming a hypnodomme, a Mistress, and the struggle to accept being a pet. I struggle still, my mind wants to defy authority. Because in my mind, I AM the authority. I AM still in control. And my submission is a figment of others' imaginations. But the Master of my Heart correctly points out a truth in me. I like to be forced to submit. I like to be taken. And by having those fantasies, I'm already am a submissive woman. Technicalities.

Again, reflecting on the past, I have changed a lot. But one part of me will not bend, will not change, is my family values. I love and respect my parents, though at times they are a pain. My mother is a devout God fearing woman. Practically a saint. My mother, the daughter of a pastor of the church. My grandfather, the pastor, left behind a legacy. My darling nephew, just six years old is truly an angel himself, says his prayers before every meal. He does this all on his own, does not need to be told. He is a good boy. Untouched by the evils if the world. His innocence is so precious. I hope he stays that way. I was not so lucky. I'm still reminded of that loss of innocense early in my life. I don't want to be reminded. It just keeps me hurting. The problem is those who didn't have their childhood messed with, they do not see the impact of their words to someone like me. I get enraged. And I rather not. If it makes me a bad pet, well masters, please accept my apology.

Fun With Numbers in Trance

In catching up blogging, I did want to mention the fun my Master of my Heart had with me the other night. He had some time in the morning to play with me. What started as the typical trance got interesting when Master tried something different. In the past me and Master used to measure our own hypnotic depths in trance. Say on a scale oc one to ten, how deep in trance we felt. One would be likd not hypnotized at all. Ten would be very deep in trance. Well, that night, I wasn't yet deep. Then in his hypnotic voice, he told me to go deeper, to 20. My mind has become so obedient to him, it obeyed automatically. I dropped to 20. He then said 40. I dropped deeper. I dropped to 40. He said 100. 200. 400. 500. I kept obeying, dropping instantly. Then he challenged me further. 1,000. 2,000. 4,000.

And that's when I completely slipped and lost grasp. No control to stop it. I slipped, fully and completely, and dropped into a deep mental oblivion. Total and completely switched off. All I know is he spoke to me, asked me questions I would normally not answer. I was switched of, and had no cares. Uninhibited. Completely under his hypnotic control. I know I wasn't aware most of the time, but there is something fun about dropping that deep that the mind switches off. I hope he does it to me again soon.

Pet and Assistant

Like I mentioned in the last post, it has been a while since I blogged regularly and I'm getting back in the groove - not only blogging but also being a mistress, a pet, a writer, a hypnotist, and a video producer. I've also been rather focused for days doing advertising research for me and the Master of my Mind. Before hypnosis, I was somewhat of a business woman with an entreprenuer spirit. I always have been analytical. Researching and being resourceful are some of my traits from my work experience. So I've put those skills back to work. I hope it pays off for both my master and me, Also hope he will appreciate my efforts and not overlook them.

Getting Back

I haven't blogged in about a week, partly because I got sick with a cough and sniffles. But I have caring masters that helped me feel better right away. What really has helped me get better faster is the love and get well wishes of my pets. Thank you guys for making me feel good even when my health was feeling bad. Because of all of you, I made a speedy recovery.

The Master of My Mind Trains His Pet

After all week of being busy with my pets, hypnotizing subjects and the general hustle and bustle of my regular day life, I found myself happy at the start of the day yesterday as I was looking forward to finally talking again to the Master of my Mind. It had been two weeks since we had spent any time together, so I was happily anticipating seeing him since I woke and opened my eyes Friday morning. After some of the day had passed, it was towards the late afternoon that I wanted to fit in sometime with the Master of my Heart for a bit as I was maybe not going to be able to spend time with him later that night. It also seemed ideal since the Master of my Heart had told me he would be alone at home which to me meant he would be free to talk, and since I am my master’s closest pet, I figured he surely would want to talk to me. Somehow, despite the ideal conditions for us to speak, we had problems communicating and it created a misunderstanding between us. It could have easily escalated to a big fight, but it didn’t. For that I’m grateful. Shows that we were able to handle our issue in a mature fashion. So instead of it getting heat, we both decided to listen to one another and we both had forgiving hearts that we let it go and made up before the end of the night. It made me feel good. I never want me and my master to end the night angry or resenting each other. It’s so easy for something like that to create a distance between us. I never want to grow apart from the Master of my Heart.

So Friday night came and it was time to meet with the Master of my Mind. It was really good hearing his voice again. We do get along really well, not just hypnotically and not just him as my master, and I his pet. So we spent an hour just pleasantly talking. Then as I was laughing at something Master said, I slipped. I slipped into a deep state, that’s all I know. I’m not sure what happened while I was under. All I know is I’d awake a few times, knowing I had been away while my master cheekily welcomed me back each time. Each time I found myself waking up knowing my body had been aroused in trance. I do believe my master played with me while I was under, and I know he did strengthen his control and my submission to him. If I try to remember anything from the trance, the only thing that I can recall is he got very dominant at one point, commanding me in such a dominant aggressive voice. Then I was only aware of myself mindlessly repeating that I was “just a pet”.

I feel the Master of my Mind has finally truly claimed me as his pet and that Friday night was my first formal pet training. A lot of what happened while I was with my master is a blur and can’t be remembered. But what I do remember is that he did do a thorough training. With me reciting what I was told, going deeper and deeper into obedience and submission to him. I know I started the night with the Master of my Mind doubtful that I would be able to feel his control over me and I was certain that my mind would be stubborn and would resist. The waters of my Master’s control run deep in me, deeper than I thought. And I had been so craving, wanting so much for so long to really feel the Master of my Mind really owned me. I wanted to feel connected to him. I wanted to feel he be a master to me. He was always busy. All this time there was this void in me. He had told me I was his pet way back. But mostly, all this time, I felt a bit abandoned as he was busy. It was creating a distance between us and it affected the control he used to have over me, and my obedience started to sway. But now, the Master of my Mind made clear to me that he is my Master, my owner, and I am his pet. He told me he knew I had been desiring to be closer to him. He told me he knew I had been longed to feel his presence as my Master and how I needed to feel he wanted me as his pet. He comforted me. He never made me feel like that before. It was such a new experience with the Master of my Mind. I was elated. He told me he was going to be better to me and make up for all that. I was so happy. Am so happy.

Yet even though he reinforced his control and deepened my submission and obedience to him, there is still that side of me that has never easily submitted to him or anyone. My inner mistress, my domme. He tried to test out his control on my Mistress. She resisted. It was to be expected. He wasn’t bothered though, he is familiar with the mistress in me and knew she would resist. That is why he declared that Sunday night he would train me and my inner mistress as well. We said goodnight to each other and once I hung up with him, I got to see the Master of my Heart wake up to his morning. We talked on the phone, the misunderstanding forgiven and forgotten, I relaxed for him and took that relaxation and deepened it. My mind was already ready again to drop down again from the Master of my Mind relaxing it earlier. Entranced now by the Master of my Heart, I went so very deep, slipping deeper and deeper into a black hole of submission. Then my Master made me his full time pet, always ready to drop to my knees to serve him and his needs, any time, any place.

I loved going deep for the Master of my Heart, but I was happy and just relieved we were ok.

A Playful Pet and a Busy Mistress

Yesterday was one of the busiest days for me. I got a recording session done. Then I got to spend time with my new pet David who I am getting to know as a person and I'm enjoying getting closer to him as his Mistress and him as my pet. He is very thought provoking and I love that he shares his knowledge with me. My pets maybe are not aware how much I appreciate intelligence in a man. Each time I time I speak to my new pet I'm learning something I didn't know before.

Then I did a training session with my pet Dan. It's rather enjoyable to hear how affected he is by my voice and the control I have over him. He has always been the best of subjects. Obediently dropping so deep for me. Obediently emptying his mind for me so he makes more room for my words and my control. He is doing it more quickly now. Such a good pet. So pleased with him. I played with him a bit as my pet doggie. He loves this, and I so love to hear him pant and whimper.

Later into the night I got to talking to my Peter. It seems like forever since I've heard Peters voice. It was good to hear it again. Peter is the constant just like in a mathematical equation. All other factors aside, he is and always has been there. He is not my pet but he sure could be. Should be maybe. He tells me he is listening more and more to my videos. Already addicted to my voice, has been for years, if he keeps watching those videos he might soon want to call me Mistress. We'll see.

The day left me feeling a bit exhausted. Even as tired as I was though, my day would not have been complete without hearing the voice of the Master of my Heart. I was so happy when he set aside everything to spend time with me and play with me. He started his playing with me, putting me into trance, I really don't know how. He' used a trigger word  I'm sure, but I don't remember it now. I know he erased it from my memory. He must have. I can't remember how I got into trance, but as he had me under, I some how started to wake slightly. I became aware of how aroused my master was trancing me, taking me deep, controlling me. I am so tuned to his arousal. Actually, I am so in tune to any man being aroused by me. I just know it so well, breathing, tone of voice, and of course my favorite, the look on their face when they are so hard, so aroused. I love that look.

I had to wake a little, knowing how aroused my Master was. And I said his trigger, and he dropped, and I took over, as best as I could, because as I already mentioned, he was turned on already. He was too turned on to really go deep for me. I went ahead and kept him aroused, until he had his release. It was so delicious just hear him reach that for me.  Even now, it kind of makes me want to squirm.

But when I woke from my trance, he wasn't done with me. So directly after his release, he put me under once again. This time more dominant. This time, me, more submissive. I'm not completely sure everything that happened in trance, but I do know this: he made me a kitty twice and even a slut (usually I refuse to be called that). I lost track of how many times he made me came. Too many times to count. I hung up with my Master, smitten and glowing. I just love my Master so much. After a long day of being a Mistress, it's feels so good to hang up the Mistress for the night, and go home to him and be his pet. It feels good to go home to the Master of my Heart.

And again, dreaming of him and his voice. I don't remember much of what I dreamed about. All I know is I wanted to be closer to his voice.

So Friday night, and I have plans to see the Master of my Mind. It's been much too long since I've talked to him. So long not feeling  his control over me. I wonder how affected I will be by him after this long with out him controlling me. All I know is I have missed the Master of my Mind, and I am hoping he will remind me what it means to be his pet.

A New Respect for My Master

In focusing on the role a Mistress or Master has to their pets, and what they should expect from their pets, I now have a new respect for the Master of my Heart. There has been so much for me to learn, still, to be a good Mistress to my pets. As I've been studying up lately on this role that I've come to have, I see that for as long as I've known the Master of my Heart, he has been a good example of what  makes a good master. He has always commanded respect. He has always told me my place. But he also was always attentive to my needs and wants as his pet. Always a good listener. He's been a patient teacher. So patient even when my mind has time to time wanted to rebel against his control and his authority. 

Since I've known him, he has always expected so much from me. He expected my respect. He expected my obedience. He commanded me to train, and I did. He followed through with all his commands, making sure I obeyed, and did all my assignments. He not only did that, he gave me feedback on every assignment I did. And he always wanted me to be the best pet and individual I could be. 

All these are the characteristics of a good master. A good example of how a master should be. When a master has these characteristics, it is so easy to submit to such a master. A pet just WANTS to submit willingly,  and surrender completely.

So I have always respected the Master of my Heart. But now, I have a whole new respect for him. I respect him even more now.  

He truly is one of the best masters you can have, and to be owned by him is an honor. Any sub who doesn't see that, well, it's their loss.

Only the Beginning

Today I had a moment to briefly chat with my Italian pet. He had already read yesterday's blog, so he knew I had intended to speak to him and give him his assignment. He is such a good pet. There's not denying that. He reads my blog often, to keep up with his Mistress. He is always so attentive and considerate. I'm very happy with my Italian pet. So when I saw my pet, he was ready for his assignment. So I told him to also compose me an email, and in the email tell me how he plans to serve his Mistress and be useful to her. He accepted his assignment and he too, also at once, completed his assignment with in minutes and sent me the following email:

"Hello Mistress,it's hard to answer your question because It's open to so many answers but:

I plan to become more available for you,watching your hypnotic submission video often so your voice is even more alluring.

I plan to improve my english speaking to talk with you more easily and fluidly

I plan to improve my hypnotic skills so I can trance you more deeply and easily when you ask me to do so.

I want my mind to be trained along with your desires

I want so many triggers that you can play with me even without having to trance me

I want to obey you and make you happy every time you're down


I want to have even more ideas so that this list would actually have no end


I plan to make sure that if you'll ask me this again another day I can only give you a blank paper because I pleased and served you to perfection"

I feel I can say that each and every one of my pets have shown that they are ready to be the best pet that they can possibly be to me. They all accepted their assignment willingly, and completed their assignments so quickly. Each of them have pleased me. Each one of them, showed they are so obedient. 

Good pets. 

This is only the beginning. More training and assignments to come. 

I am your Mistress, You are my Pet

I’ve learned a lot becoming involved in hypnosis, while at the same time learning about Dominance and Submission. But recently put that more in focus: what it is to dominate and be a Mistress, as well as what to expect from your subs and pets. Then I evaluated myself as Mistress. Then I realized I needed to tune myself as a Mistress. I realized I hadn’t fully taken my place as a Mistress and owner of my pets. I’ve assumed the role, but I did not take ownership of the role that I have. When it became clear to me, I knew I had to correct this at once. 

I made contact first with the newest pet, as he is getting to know me, I wanted to clearly establish myself as his new owner. After some light talk over the phone, I got down to business. I called him with a purpose, a reason. I wanted to state his place in the relationship he was starting with me. I was clear and direct as I told him his place and what I would expect of him. Then I gave him his first assignment. Already very behaved and obedient, I could hear my new pet take a pen and paper and ready himself to take notes.

His assignment: I wanted him to compose an email with categories. The categories were to detail his needs, his wants, his desires, his strengths, and his weakness.

Within minutes after hanging up with my new pet, he had completed the assignment I had given him:

NEEDS

i need shelter, food and water, sleep, clothes, job, car, money, etc.

i need hope, optimism and respect

i need sunlight

i need love

i need a reason, a purpose

i need to be submissive, obedient and controlled



WANTS

i want to submit to a Domme.

i want to be controlled, used and valuable

i want to always be deeply hypnotized

i want hypnotic suggestion to be flow into me without resistance

i want my desire to be a pet to grow and grow



STRENGTHS

i am reliable, dependable

i am forever loyal

i always try my hardest

i love hypnosis and mind control

i love Your voice

i trance easily and happily

i value honesty



WEAKNESSES

i am married

my time is often consumed

i have little privacy

i travel a good amount

i can be obsessive about things

my submissive self can be needy



DESIRES

Being Your collared pet

Being obedient and useful to You

To just let go, submit to You

Being unable to resist the control

Being teased and denied by my Mistress

The control to grow and grow

The chance to grow and learn how to serve and please You

To always feel this safe with You

To always trust You as i do now



I was rather please that the new pet did his assignment quickly with much thought in what he wrote.

Then I thought of my other pets, and how I’ve never given them an assignment to complete for me. I then realized I needed to expect more of them too. To expect more only helps them grow, like personal development. I had been too soft on them.

I decided to call on my first pet, my Dan. He was my first pet ever, and is still my favorite. He also is closest. I expressed to him how I needed to be a better Mistress to him, and I needed to expect more out of him as my pet. Things were going to change. And if I hadn’t be clear before, let me be clear now. I told him his place and made clear who I am to him: I am his Mistress and owner. He is my pet. So after telling him how things would be changing, I then gave my Dan his first assignment. I wanted him to write me 2 of his fetishes / turn ons. He accepted his assignment and as soon as we hung up, he also completed the task within minutes. He not only completed the task, he went above and beyond by adding more:



Assignment:



1. Being restricted. I wouldnt go as far as bondage, but essentially, yes. It doesnt have to be tied down, it can be being restricted in anotherway, i.e. not being able to do somthing simple, such as talking/walking etc. I guess i like control being taken away, and upon resisting, being able to do nothing about it

2. I discovered this last year. lets start of by saying i was uncomfortable in the dark, not scared, but unease. I decided to concore my 'fear', to do this i took a shower in pitched black(the bathroom was the darkest placed i had (no window)). So i turned the light of, got undressed and got in the shower. I must have got turned around in the shower, because when i tried to get out i couldnt find the door, anywhere! It is then when i realised my unease of the dark wasnt fear, it was the excitement of the unknowing, somebody could be standing right in front of me, and i wouldnt know it, by world could turn upside down, totally change, and because of lack of sight i would have no idea. So unknowing

I know you didnt ask for this bit, i hope its ok, i just want us to grow together.





Needs

· to be needed

· to exceed

Wants

· to be successfully

Desires

· to make you happy

Hopes

· that we will grow stronger

· to find love

Fears

· the more pets you get, the further apart we will grow



Now I just need to speak to my Itallian pet. To be continued…

My Master's Toy

I am a pet with two masters, one of which lately has been so caught up with school that it has distracted him completely to needs of me as his pet. The Master of my Mind did not contact me for over a week. A few words in an email would have been good. But without that, I felt rather neglected, unneeded. When my master finally came to see me, I was craving any reminder of my place with him. Even if he simply called me "Pet". It would of been enough. When he wasn't doing this, I hinted that it would be nice to see a few words reminding me of my place. My master's response - got to go to bed, good night. That left me feeling unsatisfied. I wanted to still feel his wanting to assert his being my master. Just earlier in the evening I had taken some time training my new pet David. So I was still in domme mode through most of the evening, but there was that part of me that wanted to still be a pet to both my masters. So the Master of my Mind didn't help me feel in touch with the side of me that is a pet. I started to feel it might cause my mind not to submit as it should to any of my masters. I spoke with the Master of my Heart. I told him my concern, that I was not feeling much of a pet at the moment. My master, listened to me say this, although he was busy trying to finish another level. Then, something odd happened. It could of been something I read. It could of been something he said. I don't know how, but I felt myself drop into a rather deep trance. Then in this state, I heard my master tell me he was taking a break for me. He asked me a question. When I responded yes, he could hear I sounded very tranced. He decided to keep me tranced. Already so deep, he told me what I needed to hear. That I was a pet, his pet. And right then, I was only a pet, just a pet, and even his toy. I found myself repeating no control, just a toy. Each time feeling more blank and deeper, and getting lost in pleasure. It felt so good. Not just the trance. But my master caring enough about my needs to stop what he was doing to remind me that I was still his pet.

When I woke up, I just felt amazing. My master content that he reminded me of my place, went back to completing the task at hand, finishing another level. He did this for a while longer, until he felt he wanted another break. And this time, when he did, he was the one who wanted to relax for me. My master let go to me more than he has in a very long time. How I enjoyed seeing him drop so deeply. I knew he was ultradeep. And with him this deep, I brought out my wolf and had fun playing with him. So thank you Master of my Heart for making last night a great night.

Mind Blank, Body Tipsy

So I after already knowing the Master of my Heart almost 3 months, I barely am being introduced to his text hypnosis. I first experienced it last night and quickly became captivated by his words. I knew I could be text tranced, but it's only happened once to me before. I prefer being tranced by voice. But I tried it, and soon felt the loss of control. Not being able to look away, he worked me to empty my mind. So entranced, so deep, just a pet, then, before I knew it, suddenly just a toy. His toy. No thoughts, no wants, no needs. Just my master's thoughts, just my master's wants, just my master's needs, just my master's words.

The next night, he let me feel entrance by his words again. Just not a toy this time. Thought I did kind of enjoy that feeling, and wouldn't mind feeling it again. 

I guess part of me is kind like his toy at the moment. A little tipsy right now, from his hypnotic tequila shots, and a little tipsy from some real wine I drank. And a little switched off consciously  being my master's toy writing this blog body tipsy and mind blank

My Master's Needs

Well the past few days I've felt a bit restrained on the home front. My freedom has been somewhat restricted but things are slowly improving. Because I haven't had the freedom to, I haven't had much time for my pets and some of them have felt a bit neglected by me. I've talked to each of them and I hope that they clearly see I've been distant not out of choice, and I miss them very much. Seeing each of them momentarily was good, I really have missed their company. It's already so difficult to be able to see the pets I already have, but I still have suitors coming to me asking me to own them. As tempting as it is, I really feel I can not take on any more pets at the moment. The most I did for one young man is hypnotize him  and he enjoyed that thoroughly and I'm glad I was able to make him feel good. I've spent as much time as possible spending time with the Master of my Heart as he's been preparing to move to his new apartment. He's feeling the tension of the move I'm sure, as well as the results of sleeping on a bad bed. He's been day in and out dealing with such back and neck pain. I feel so helpless, I wish i could massage it away for him. I am so good with my hands. It just makes me silently fume when I know his girlfriend is not tending to my master's needs. Does she not care for him? See he's in pain? Thinking of him and his needs at all?  I wish she made more an effort for him. Maybe once he is settled in his new apartment, and the back pain is gone, he can work on making her a better pet to him again. Every pet needs a little re-training, time to time. She's no exception.

I got to spend some time chatting with Master and my hypno sister. My hypnosister has been dealing with some personal issues and I hope that me and the Master of my Heart keep her smiling and entertained. I truly love and care for her and if hearing me moan in pleasure as my master triggered my arousal helps take her mind off of her sorrows, well, then it's fine by me. I just hope she enjoyed it as much as I did.

Playful Kitty

My Master's kitty came out to play with him. He loved so much playing with with his cat. She was such a playful kitty. She just couldn't keep still. Her Master, trying to focus on finishing another level, but kitty kept patting her paws on the keys of his keyboard. She kept moving her kitty tail in front of his face, her kitty tail tickling his cheeks. Meeowing and purring, purring and pawing. Kitty on her Master's lap, she tried to get comfortable, after all, Master's lap is such a comfy and cozy place. She found her Master's tummy, just felt so good to her paws. So as she sat on her Master's lap, she kept pressing her paws against his tummy. Left to right, left to right, back and forth, cutely moving her paws so fast, that it tickled him. Then kitty found a toy to play with, as she played on her Master's lap. Kitty just loved the toy so much. She played, pawed, and even rubbed, rubbing it against her cheek, being oh so careful not scratch it with her kitty claws. Her Master, so pleased with his kitty, served her some cream before he went off to bed. Good night mein Meister. Thank you for a wonderfully purrrrrfect night. Sweet dreams.